The fragile mind state of ambition

The weekend this was taken hit me differently, the weight of the sacrifices I make for my work just weighed heavily on my mind. Let me walk you through it.?

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In the pursuit of professional excellence, sacrifice is a constant companion. We give up time with loved ones, precious moments, and sometimes, even parts of ourselves. A few weeks ago, I faced a sacrifice unlike any other – altering a part of my body for the sake of my work.?

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It wasn't an easy decision. The issue? My hair. Its impact on client interactions forced me to consider drastic measures. After consulting my mentor, I chose to follow my instincts.?

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So one weekend, I underwent a painful procedure to change my hair. The aftermath was brutal – migraines and doubt plagued me. But I persevered, reminding myself of my commitment to my career. Even though it was the first time I ever had to subject myself to physical pain for my work.?

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Days passed, and work continued as usual. But beneath the surface, the weight of my decision lingered. Then this weekend when I went out with a friend, I found myself stepping outside for air after an innocent comment triggered a flood of emotions, leaving me reeling. I just froze there as this photo was taken and my friend was convinced it was just me trying a cool pause, until after calling me a few times and realizing I wasn’t responding. (I wasn’t intoxicated or in any mind altered state)?

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The next day, as the same friend checked in on me, I realized the gravity of my situation.?

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Sharing this isn't easy. As professionals, we often mask our struggles behind a facade of professionalism. But sometimes, it's okay to let the mask slip.?

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I meet countless clients and connections on LinkedIn, each with their own story. While I can't share my entire journey with everyone, I hope this glimpse into my experience offers clarity and understanding.?

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In moments like these, I'm reminded of the importance of self-care. So yes, maybe I do need a therapist and if you know someone, please hook me up. And perhaps, acknowledging that need is the first step towards healing.?

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Remember, behind every professional facade lies a person with their own battles. Let's support each other through the highs and lows of this journey we call life.?

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“You will never know how much it has cost my generation to preserve YOUR freedom. I hope you will make a good use of it.” - John Adams?

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Thank you for reading! ???