Flicking The First Domino

When I was a small kid, I never used to get a "Time Out". We had what was called "Times Up" and then I would get hogging all around!

Why do I share myself with others without expecting a reward, a payment or a commendation? What can be indefinitely better than making a living? It can be to make a noble life. Having a specific goal and obsessively working to achieve it takes courage and sacrifice.

My Inherent Approach

Working for a living is a necessity. But the approach with which I approach this desire is contingent too. Anything in life worth having is worth working for. Should I keep giving and giving to a situation without having anything in return? My guides whisper, "Just keep giving till the Master stops giving you."

That which I share with others will multiply and that which I withhold will diminish!

My Depleting Energy Levels

My energy levels have been depleting in wake of all work and no play. But I was eager to face the morning sun, complete some pending chores, plunging into all sorts of hogging-swobbing with vim and vigour. But before it was too late I started feeling tired and found myself dragging through the work without joy.

How do I cope?

What should I do about it? Should I take more out of myself than I've got? Should I punish myself more and more and rest between spells? Probably, there is more to life than merely increasing its speed. But if I slow down, I might fall behind and never catch up. I try shaving time off chores and cram in more to-dos.

Amongst All The Noise

Sometimes I find my son calling out for being distracted. I never feel on top of things at work while being busy and scattered. If I start my morning conditioning my mind-soul-body by checking to-dos and get to zero by midnight, I don't assume it as a successful day. I am not doing the most important work by being more productive; it only means I am prioritizing others. I want to be present for my child.

What do I wish to do?

I wish to be more intentional and focus on something that is constructive. It isn't saving but making time for what matters. What makes my perspective unusual is I've spent years understanding that my willpower is limited and I have to prevent it from taking over. I cannot erase every obligation so I work with numerous constraints, experimenting - failing - succeeding over time.