Finding Clarity in the Noise

I wrote this five years ago.

I never posted it because I thought it would make me too vulnerable.

Clients would not want to work with me.

I’d look weak, confused, scatty.

Now, I think they’re not the clients I’d want to work with

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Finding Clarity in the Noise

Bath = Clarity

A form of meditation and unforced creative thought.

Writing down the bones because the bones don’t lie – they form the basis of the choreographed. Art, writing, media, marketing.

I’m writing this to remember how I get to clarity of mind, because I spend so long trying to get there.

The mind… my mind works constantly on a series of problems I invent for myself. It solves problems all the time, even when I don’t want it to. That becomes difficult when you’re trying to get things done.

Without knowing it from my early years I’ve been developing a problem-solving mind. Not one of typical academia but one of creative thinking.

Thinking my way through a series of life obstacles which only comes from experiencing the steps along the way.

I’ve now reached a point [in 2018] where the obstacles are forever heading towards me and I have to accept I can’t solve everything.

That’s someone else’s job. But I can decide to follow some of them and see what happens.

Distraction is my worst enemy it seems, but maybe distraction is my solution. Working on forever problems can only lead to frustration of failure. But recognising that distraction, is maybe one way of dealing with it.

This is a relatively new thought for me.

Like the last few minutes new.

It might be the answer. Recognising my mind is not like that of my wife, or father, or friends – who seem way more focused and organised.

It’s a power though, this ‘creative thinking’. It means I can apply it in a controlled way to other problems, using common sense as a starting point and imagination and ideas as the next points in the puzzle.

I chose the creative path. I’ve tried a jack of all - a designer, a filmmaker, festival curator, art director, photographer, illustrator, business founder, marketer and occasional speaker.

I know how creative works in different ways for people and their psychologies. Or at least I think I do.

And now I find myself off-tack, down the rabbit hole of digression.

What was the point of this writing about clarity. I had it, now I’m back at?Scwair1.

A business which starts truly at square one – with the knowledge and learning I have gained over the years.

I think we’ve got a lot to offer. The first thing is a blank page. The first piece of jigsaw, the initial pixel, the lowest resolution start up.

From grass roots to brick and mortar or virtual teams or thought leaders.

That will be my biggest hurdle - to turn the distracted thought process into a champion of growth, without the academic model in the way.

Scwair One starts now and continues as a philosophy to live by. Why listen to tradition?

It’s been the biggest obstacle in so many ways and the people who think around, over or under it are the ones who create the future.

Those people are all around us. They need our support.

So is focus all it’s cracked up to be?

Maybe acceptation is the key.

Accepting the way we are for whatever reasons might undermine mindfulness, but it has its advantages too.

Distraction rules my life, and that maybe just fine.

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In 2018 I wasn’t comfortable sharing thoughts like these.

Some of it doesn't quite make sense.

But after 200+ days of writing I have overcome the fear of what ‘they’ might think.

Of how weak, or ineloquent I might seem. How disparate these very thoughts may be.

But if you read this and understood… if you empathised… let me know.

Our power is in our understanding of each other.

No spectrums, no ‘disorders’.

Just people, who find their strength along the way.

Even if the clarity will never be completely clear.

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