Find people who love like you do

Well, it always depends on you in terms of that what is obvious to you or what not now!! If you really want someone else in your life (a boy or a girl) you must always be privileged by his or her notions such as what is their taste and preferences for ; or what they wanna apply in their life for becoming the human being of value. Don’t get lose your hope because if there is hope then there is scope'. You just have to keep yourself neutral for what they feel or want and always be the nice for the particular to whom u wanna in your life.

And also as a modernization human being are very well acquainted that everything depends on nature either it is a boy or a girl..would you rather someone love you for who you are not? It doesn’t matter how outgoing you are, as long as you are true to yourself. It sounds like you know yourself pretty well, you know what you like, and that is a big start. You just have to start believing and loving yourself more for it. Who cares what most people refer to you as. You don’t want to be what most people are, you want to be who you are. Treat it as a compliment. There are plenty of deep women out there that are wondering the same thing you are.

It will be easier to find someone from your own avenues. If you aren’t a party person, then don’t go to parties to meet people. If you like to read, you could join a book club. You could join a film club- based off of genres you like. These are things that will keep you true to yourself without putting too much pressure on you, since they are activities you enjoy. ?I don’t know what is love? I want to know how to get loved by someone. here is why I am asking for it.

Basically I am a person who loves my work more than anything, From the morning at 6 after completing the gym too late at 1 am I to continue to do my office work, even in the washroom, breakfast, lunch, and dinner time I continue to do the work (my work is like that which I can do all the time), during the work whenever I get the frustration, I want to talk to her. When I find something more joyful than usual, I want to share it with her. whenever I feel low I message her and I don’t know how and why she works for me like a medicine. no matter how happy, sad, frustrated I find myself, but a single message or call makes me feel like everything is great and the world is so beautiful, and I think the same happens with her.

When I was working in a Company as a Business associate with her, we started talking with each other, breaks together, and I improved day by day after few months it was like if I was somewhere she was there with me, or if she was somewhere I was with her. When I used to walk with her on the road I feel too scared for her safety and I give her a safe side and feel better, even while road crossing I used to go with her so that she reaches home without any issues.

I Used to myself make lunch for her and in my bag, I kept more than 5 delicious food items every day like biscuits, chips, dry mixture, cookies and juice so that whenever she asks me I need something to eat, I could give her and to hide that I was worried about herself I used to react like I am doing this for myself as I want to be healthy and so many excuses all the time. However, after some days people started talking about us in the office and everyone was 100% sure that I was in a relationship with her, but in reality, I was just worried about her, I wanted to see her happy and we were only good friends. I used to deny having lunch or even tea with my managers just to spend some time with her and she had to wait for me every day after office work to accompany me.

Then I was feeling like there was something more than just a friend from my side, and she used to every day ask why you do so much for me. what people are thinking about us, and I used to answer who cares about them, and she was like me repeating yes I don’t care but still don’t be too serious about me only you have lots of friends in the office spend some time with me and if I any day do so then she reply that today you ignored me. My manager everyday end used to say the same words to us and we every day inform him no sir there is nothing like you think, and in this way, life was smoothly going on with her.

Finally one day she asked me: She: Hey I want to ask you something

Me: Yes go ahead

She: Leave it, I will talk about it later.

Then evening she sent me a message

She: Hi

Me: Hi ………. What happened

She: I want to ask you something

Me: ok

She: Whatever I am going to ask before that please promise that after this discussion we will forget it forever and will be the same always and it will not affect our relationship.

Me: Ye,s it is ok, you may ask me.

She: We are just friends right, or you are thinking anything beyond?

I replied yes we are just friends.

She: But whenever you talk with me, what I see in you, is the way you react and care for me, the way you are worried about me, it doesn't seem like we are only friends. Tell me is there something else on your mind? I mean do you love me?

Me: There is nothing like that and we are only friends.

She: Ok then, please forget what I asked for forever and we will be normal as other days.

I was actually lying to her. This was the time when according to me I was in love with her, but I said no because I was worried about her relationship, I was not in the condition to lose her. and I was thinking like if I would say that I was in love with her so she might stop talking to me all the time. days were passing Everything that I used to do for her was increasing, I mean doing nothing more than care.

Then one day I told her that I wanted to marry her. But she replied back. Listen, I can’t marry you, because we are friends and I don’t have any other feeling for you, I don’t love you. You are important and your friendship is important. I like you, and you have everything which I want to see in my husband, but I can not marry you because I don’t get that type of feel for you. I tried to convince her but maybe her belief was strong or I was not good to make her feel like love for me.

Finally we decided to continue like friends, rather very good friends. she used to warn me like if I ever change my feelings other than friendship, that will be end of the friendship even. Actually everything was going on not quite normal but smoothly and we were spending all the time together in the office. Suddenly after 2 months something came out of the box. when one fine day she told me" I am getting those feelings for someone else, I think I like him or maybe I love him, but I will never tell you who that guy is. But when we left office she told me the name of that boy as well.

For the last few months I was thinking like everything was normal and I was happy with her as a friend but when I knew that she likes someone else. Now how should I explain it, even I don’t remember properly how did I react that day with her? She was just trying to say again and again there is nothing like you think I just like him only, but my emotions were not in my control. I was feeling sad not because she liked someone but because I was scared of losing her. She was the most important part for me to live. That day I left the office and reached my home, put the bag on one side and started crying. I was hurting myself, I had mobile in my hands getting calls and messages and all that was useless for me and after some time I stopped reacting and my eyes were filled with tears coming out.

Next morning I decided not to go to the office and planned to change the job, but when she called me and requested to come in office I went to the office and in the break time she informed me that she likes that guy, but she will never tell him about it, but then she talked to him and informed me everything what she talk to him and all. Then after 3 to 4 days she said that she didn’t like to talk to him and don’t wanna go anywhere with him, because she doesn’t feel comfortable with him and she did the same. I don’t know what was the actual reason sometimes. I feel like she did it because of me or really she was not happy with him.

Again after 15 to 20 days suddenly I had to leave the job due to some reasons, but I used to come to meet here every week. She was getting irritated with me because of my taking too much care of her and I was trying not to do anything but everything was just happening. Finally, one day I decided not to talk to her because I was not in my control. I was not able to make things better. I stopped calling her, I ignored lots of calls and messages and didn’t reply to any calls. It was pandemic time and I was stuck in Delhi alone. In my building no one was available to talk and I was on the 4th floor for a long time. Then I started suffering from fever I thought like I may not be able to talk to her ever so. When she called me, I answered, when I talked with her I feel quite normal. I mean the situation was good for me because in this period of time I had learned how to live without her.

From that time till today I left that location. We are now talking once a week and we fight a lot, but it’s like a fun fight and we share all the funny moments. We both there for each other. we love each other, have lots of respect for each other. She still says that you are the one with whom I can trust more than anyone, I find you perfect as my life partner, but I can not be in a relationship with you because I don’t feel love for you. What life is finally? Cheers!