About the feelings

For a very long time, I had difficulties with emotions. I found it difficult to express them. Excluding, as is true for many, I think, anger (By the way, anger, in my opinion, is a strong but extremely ineffective emotion). I can look back into my life and it feels like, "Woah! Where were all my emotions?"

I thought, for long, that I had difficulty in experiencing them, too. Now I know better. There were phases of life where my feeling part was not at its best. But then again, that is what I could do. Now, with time, I have come to realize differently, to understand emotions better, not without flaws, though.

I remember, when I was a kid, after watching an extremely emotional movie, I would feel proud, even declare my ability to "not crying at all while watching the movie." I also remember us kids making fun of each other if any of us had the slightest of the semblance of a teardrop in eyes. As an adult, I wonder, what was there to feel proud about not crying after watching some of the finest emotional scenes? But then again, we were kids. What did we know?

Thy Lord, forgive us, for we didn't know what we were doing!

Most importantly, from where did we learn something horrible like this?

I posted on FB. My brother commented, a beautifully and elegantly worded comment brimming with love and care for me and for my thought. I could feel it in my heart and I did reply in kind. But then, one of my friends asked me, as fun, "why don't you guys say it to each other? Why in the public?"

I should not complain. I myself am guilty of asking this question (not directly, I think) a hundred thousand times. When I see a message that a son, daughter, mother, brother, sister, or friend sent to a loved one. I would feel like, "Why on earth do they have to do that? Can't they do it in private?"

Of course, they can. Probably, they are already doing it.

But why not in public also? In a world where we see people 'expressing' all sorts of atrocities in public, why not love? Why not affection? Why not care? Also, as a generation, we have come to take it for granted that if the good deed is from a close one; we fail to acknowledge and appreciate it. "Of course, he/she/they were supposed to do that anyway, what big deal?" we ask. This is especially true for our own family.

I just wanted to remind you all, express love and care (I think, I should add we need to do it wisely), privately and in public.

Sincerely,

Dr. Noufal Hameed