feeling broken

Being Broken

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Being broken is easy, it’s natural and it’s inevitable. To never feel empty from inside is like feeling…… well I can’t say how it feels ‘never to have felt emptiness inside’, because like normal human beings I have felt empty numerous times.

There have been times I have stood in front of mirror and questioned my existence, and before you call suicide helpline (which I doubt work properly in India), at least I don’t feel like challenging my existence anymore, I feel good in that department.

Unlike we perceive our world, conflict co-reside with clarity inside and outside us. There will never a moment in our lives when there is absolute conflict without clarity, or absolute clarity without conflict.

So to think you can reach at any extreme is, well……. not practical, or at least not advisable. Because if you believe you can only operate when everything is 100% clear to you, then unfortunately you will never be able to move. The truth of the matter is we are all the time dealing with uncertainties; the only question is how much uncertainly you can bear.

It’s not like you will have an epiphany one day and you will figure out this conundrum; like any other worthy thing in this world, this too will demand your efforts, your persistence and of course practice (a little bit of crying can also help). You cannot just figure out the world without sweating, can you?

Embracing the chaos is not easy, its messy and sometimes it requires all the will power you got (or the one you have preserved for years and never used), but out of that chaos one day clarity will emerge in all its glory, and you will feel a sense of fulfillment and no requirement of a suicide helpline.

So rather than running away from the conflicts, confusions and chaos life has to offer, just sit in front of it for a minute and tell yourself, this too shall pass , or even if it doesn’t; it’s okay.

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