Fear Not, Ride On!

For weeks, I've struggled to articulate my meta-vision for V-All. Despite having a clear mental image, the words seemed elusive. I've been frustrated with my inability to express my thoughts and have procrastinated, seeking any excuse to avoid the task. I have finally realised that my hesitation stems from deep-seated insecurities. I fear that my vision will be dismissed as too small or unrealistic. I'm also worried that once I write my ideas, they won't live up to my expectations or will not be as much fun to create.

Similarly, the Royal Enfield Classic 500 sitting under my building has been a constant source of anxiety. It is not because I am lazy, it is because I was petrified, and still am. This powerful motorcycle, a symbol of freedom and adventure, had been sitting untouched. Fear held me back, whispering doubts about my ability to handle such a formidable machine. It is a bullet, a dream bike since college for me. I am scared that my dream will shatter if I take it out and fall, guys will tell me, “Madam choti bike lelo ya scooty chala lo (Ride a small bike or get a scooty)” or I will not be able to lift it or just get crushed under it.

But this weekend, I decided to confront my fears head-on. I geared up at 5 am and attempted to ride the motorcycle. I stood for half an hour trying to kickstart it because the battery was dead. Leaving it standing in one place for a month giving every excuse in the book, I had let the battery drain itself. Also, I didn’t know how to kick-start this beast and there I was stuck.

Stuck as I will be if I do not write my vision now and get it going because three months down the line, I will not be able to just call a mechanic and say fix my startup like I did my bike. I will just be standing there wondering what did I do wrong. Because it is not just about having it in my head or standing down in my building. It is about showing up, kickstarting it and going for a ride OR writing it, drawing the features, and finding the funds with a team to make it the best possible giving app ever.

The plan this week is to just write the vision, redo the pitch and go back and raise some more funds. Easier said than done but well I can kickstart a bullet and ride it so I can write the vision that has been sitting in my head for two years. Well, a kick at a time because there is no other way if I want to take this bike called V-All for a spin.