Faith Without Trust

I want to preface this article post by saying that I have not always consider myself a religious person. I’ve been in recovery for over 3 years now, and in recovery it is important to turn your will and life over to a power greater than yourself. We call that a “higher power.”

Many of us come into recovery with biases about religion, I was no exception, but alcoholism scared me more than not believing in some sort of higher power, so, I fashioned a God of my understanding at that time in my life, as we are guided to do in AA.

My spiritual practice is much more charismatic now than it ever was but for the past almost 3 years I’ve had all the faith in the world but I didn’t have trust. I didn’t even know the difference until recently.

Faith is a noun. It is something we have. It’s basically a strong belief in a higher power without proof or evidence. Faith says our higher power CAN. Trust is a verb. It is something we DO. It is faith in action.

Trust says our higher power IS. Trust is largely based on evidence that our higher power is real. I will use an example that I found on a Christian website and that I heard from Bob D, a great recovery speaker (I will paraphrase).

In the 1800s the famous Blondin performed death-defying tightrope acts, mostly over Niagara Falls. He would add an element of difficulty every time. One time he carried his manager on his back!

Blondin was great at wowing the crowds with suspense and thrills. In one show he asked the audience if they would be interested in seeing him push a wheel barrel over the tightrope. The audience screamed out, “YES.”

You see the crowd had faith that he could push a wheel barrel across the tightrope because they’d seen him do many stunts before. But when Blondin asked if anyone would be interested in getting in the wheel barrel, the response was a unanimous, “NO!”

This is a metaphor for your higher power. How many of us say we have faith? We have faith that Blondin will push that wheel barrel over the tightrope. We have faith there is a higher power out there. We believe in that power. But how many of us really trust that higher power enough to get into that wheel barrel?

Getting into the wheel barrel means LETTING GO COMPLETELY. That you have no doubt that your higher power has got you... That is trust.

I didn’t come to this trust lesson easily. I’ve had some adversity for the past 3 years and I did everything that a human being could do to try and control the situation and at times, I left my higher power out of it completely. I got this! Ensuing mental break downs, shame, anxiety, fear, you name it happened. I just couldn’t take it anymore.

One day, I got on my knees and prayed, “God, please show me what to do here, I’m so done trying to make this happen. I surrender.” The very next day I spoke to one of my mentors, James, my spiritual coach, and who is also a highly sought after Financial Advisor said this to me. “I want you to say this mantra every day when meditating... God, give me the TRUST that I need and the willingness to accept the evidence of it.” (Maybe not those exact words but pretty darn close)

Every day there after, I meditate and say that mantra. Everywhere I turn it seems that someone is telling me to trust. I’m constantly getting that message. So, I stepped into that wheel barrel. There was no other choice.

Staying in the wheel barrel is a daily practice, as many days I would like to take my will and life back and start making things happen again. I won’t receive the miracles if I do that. Your higher power is there when all resistance stops.

So, when things are spiraling out of control, when life doesn’t make sense, when everything has been stripped from you and you’re left with nothing... That is when you’re probably going to be forced to trust. Every single pain and trial has a purpose. As difficult as these times are, we have to trust in our higher power who is the only one who can see the finished picture.

So this brings an interesting question to mind as I am wrapping up my thoughts on this article. Can you really place trust into another human being? How may times has your trust been broken? How many times have you broken the trust of another? One thing I have learned in my journey is this, We all make mistakes but the mistake does not nor should it ever define who we are as a person.

It is hard to ever fully understand what is going through the mind of someone else when they decide to break your trust. Did they do it because they are really evil? I have to think not and think more on the lines of who they were trying to help when they made that decision. There is always a "Why" behind the choices that we make and more times than not we are just blinded to the good intentions that others really have.

If you have FAITH in your higher power which mine of course is GOD that means you TRUST that your higher power will deliver you to the very things promised this side of Heaven. My higher power is a living spirit within and I have to TRUST in myself. Once I learned to trust in myself, that Inner voice of reason and Truth started guiding me to the people I could then start to trust.

Recovery with anything has one thing in common and that is this, IT All Starts With You!!

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I love each and everyone of you, till next time, GOD BLESS!!