Factor 13

Sometime in early 2017 I was diagnosed with Factor 13 deficiency. A platelet disorder only a handful of people have ever been diagnosed with, which basically meant I’d do 10 push ups and a week later I’d have a 1/2 gallon of blood in a hematoma in my neck, groin, arm pit, thigh. I made 15 trips to the hospital, each ranging anywhere from 2 to 3 weeks each On one of these stays I had 7 trips to the operating room, because they couldn’t close up a wound that kept bleeding. It was the most painful and scariest shit I’ve ever been through.?

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In December of 2018 I was in the UCI @ Cedar Sinai hospital with 2 massive hematomas on in my neck and the other in my groin. They kept giving me blood, but I was bleeding out inside. They wife was given 24 hours for me to live. That night in the ICU and old Jewish coagulation specialist came into my room, took one look at me and said “give him a gram of steroids”, the next day I was out of the ICU bed and was trying to stretch. He figured out how to stop the bleeding. I had another 22 hematomas and another 8 2-3 week stays in the hospital after that.?

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A good friend of mine and her ex started the first licensed plant medicine spot on the planet, in Costa Rica called Rythmia. She told me plant medicine would save my life and that I had to go there. I had nothing to lose.?

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I did 4 nights of plant medicine with shaman’s and came back to LA. 2 months later, my factor 13 deficiency was nowhere to be found. No more hematomas. All the specialists were left scratching their heads, saying “we don’t know what happened, but you don’t have this disorder anymore”.?

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I knew what happened. I was able to forgive my abuse grandmother for the first time in my life. I kissed her cheek, rubbed her feet and said “Mama, now I can see why you were in so much pain.”

So now let me tell you about my Rythmia trip. It was the scariest and most amazing trip on my life. Scary cause I didn’t know what the hell I was going to experience or what I would be when I finished.?

So the trip starts with a couple of classes by the guy who started it. Gerry Powell and how he went from selling two companies for 90M each, while abusing women, booze and coke. He said he was the angriest and meanest person he’d ever known and he hated himself.?

He did a trip to costa rica and was introduced to a shaman by the rehab center cause they kept going back to his old ways.?

One experience with Ayahuasca and he was changed.?

Ok back to what I went through.?

So a few classes by Gerry on what to experience and the idea that there are 3 basic miracles or intentions to aim for: heal thy heart, merge with your soul and forgive the unforgivable.?

The first 3 night sessions were from 5pm to around 1m. The fourth night was an all nighter from 8pm to 8am. first night Peruvian mix, then costa rican, Brazilian and finally Colombian.?

The overall idea is that you purge in some shape form or fashion during the ‘medicine’; Purging can take the shape of vomit, pissing, shitting, laughing, crying, yawning, shivering or shaking. I did a bit of each during my 4 evenings with Ayahuasca.?

Another few suggestions are to go into the evenings with an open heart, take your child within with you, breath and to remember that whatever comes up no matter how scary or terrifying is supposed to come up so it can leave you in the purge. “what comes, goes”.?

Night 1

The first night I drank the medicine and about 45 minutes later I was lying on my mattress, in a state they call being ‘drunk’ cause your legs and arms feel like they weigh a ton and you don’t really want to move them. I started to see the most beautiful geometric shapes moving in sych, to the singing or music that was being played. (i’m also convinced that the siblings that wrote the matrix movies, must have done ayahuasca, cause that shit is real).?

So the medicine ebbs and flows, meaning you feel it then you don’t. When you don’t, you start to have realizations and conversations with yourself. I started feeling a tremendous amount of love for my wife and boy, and the little baby we had on the way. When I say love, I’m talking something i’d never felt before. It was the most deep and beautiful feeling I have ever. During this overwhelming feeling of love, I sobbed like I had never before. That lasted about 15 minutes.?

About 2 hours after the first cup those of us who wanted another cup were invited to drink another cup. I went up for another cup and decided to walk outside a bit and lay in one of the hammocks posted up around the ceremony room. I looked up into the blanket of starts and was blown away by the depth and beauty of the universe. I also saw a few faces in the moon and a little alien looking being that kept mumbling, but I couldn’t make out what was being said.?

I went back in and laid down on my mattress again and stated to feel heavy. The geometric shapes started up again, but this time they were a lot more animated and faster. I went with it. I breathed and remembered to keep little Gobi close by.?

Again the medicine ebbed and flowed and I started having realizations. At one point I sat up and felt like my mattress was breathing, so I started to giggle, which turned into an all out hysterical laugh that infected a few others and went on for a good hour. I couldn’t help myself.?

I then asked “what am I’ to which i heard the reposes. “you’re not one thing or another, you are everything’, which was followed by ‘you are enough’. That really floored me. I am enough. What a great fucking concept. I’m everything, and I’m enough!

The morning after we had a class and went over our experiences and were given some guidance on what we went through and what we would experience the following nights.?

Night 2

Same set up. took the first drink and went to my mattress.?Within about an hour I started to see the geometric shapes but this time it was all in 3D, there was depth. We were told that mother Aya comes in the shape of snakes at times. I started to see all sorts of snakes moving and slithering through me. (I like snakes so that wasn’t an issue). Again the medicine ebbed and flowed and I started having realizations. Once again, I felt an immense amount of love for my immediate family, all of my wifes’ family and then all of a sudden MAMA, my gran came into view and for the first time in my life, I felt love for her and realized how much pain she must have gone through, to cause so much pain in her own family and to me. She’s been the one unforgiven that I have never been able to talk with or forgive at all. I hated her and what she put me through.?

I started to see her pain and went up to her and asked her if she’s like me to rub her feet or massage her head (she used to make me do that starting at 6; ). I felt a tremendous amount of love for her and was able to forgave her. I then moved on to my dad and sort of had the same feelings for him. My Mom crept in there as well and I realized that my 78 year old woman had never felt unconditional love in her life and all the pain she has caused in her life is a direct reflection of that lack of love.?

We were then called up for cup two. Within 45 minutes I was ‘drunk’ on my mattress and started in on the more intense 3d world of snakes and geometric shapes. At one point the entire left side of my body melted into the geometric shapes as snakes went in and out of my body.?

There’s a concept called surgery where either lil beings or the snakes come and take the impurities out of your body. This is how it manifested for me.?

When the second cup wore off, I started with the self love and actually saw my child within and merged him into my heart. I then saw myself standing next to me, and invited me into me.

This I was told, is the merging of the soul that was mentioned before. I felt whole for the first time.?

Night 3?

The 3rd night was not as intense as day 1 or 2 because ( i didn’t get the memo) you’re not supposed to drink any water during the ceremony as it can give you very bad stomach aches. I got a couple of horrific ones, but still had the realizations and more forgiveness in between.?

Night 4?

This was the all nighter the mix was mellow, yet full of insight. Early in the am the shaman did an individual prayer and blessing that was one of the most beautiful experiences of my life.?

So the take away has been that I did some cellular cleaning. I wanted spontaneous healing from my diseases, but have realized that I spent a whole life time believing I was a piece of shit and sick, cause that’s what I was being told. It’ going to take a bit for me to clean all this up.?

I can say that my level of fear, stress and anxiety has diminished tremendously.?

These 4 nights were the beginning of my life long journey with the medicine. Thus far, I’ve sat with it 14 nights in total. Each have been filled with blessings and lessons. When I am financially able, I will send everyone I love (who wants to go, cause you can’t force anyone to go to the medicine, they have to be called) to experience plant medicine.?

I am now 57, but feel 40. I am now following my passions and have recognized that my purpose in life is to educate and empower people using my skillset. I am nothing more than a vessel for the divine to travel through. We all are.? Angie Behm Troy Swope Mauro Porcini Edy Enriquez Nishit Kanabar Sabrina Millet Kanabar Afdhel Aziz Bita Daryabari Bita Milanian Richard DiPilla Chynna Morgan Xanthe Wells Pete Johnson Andre Jetmir Kwame Anku #gratitude #living #secondchance

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