Everyone who has wronged me helps me healing when I forgive

The fire of Anger/Hatred/Envy burns first, the one who is harboring it and your hatred only indicates your inability to be in peace with reality. From the details, it is obvious that you are a beautiful person, you are wasting your life by thinking of past, those people will learn their lessons in their own time, they are not worth wasting a minute of your life. Meanwhile shouldn't you try to make your life better? What good is hatred if it burns you down as well.

It is always better to stay away from those two, it helps to keep them out of your head. Go out with friends, don't be alone if that makes you think over and over about the same thing. There is no one in the whole world who has not been wronged, remember you always have the choice to get hurt or not. You don't have to overcome them, you have to overcome yourself. Those who wronged you are also victims of their own limited mindset, they are still crude and don't have refined faculties, is it fair to hate fools? "forgive them for they know not what they are doing."

Failure is not failure until you give up. "Keep a green tree inside you, the singing bird will sure come" Read philosophy, try Hinduism/Buddhism/Jainism/Sufi. A different perspective on life can drastically change the importance you have given to some things in life. Read Autobiography of a Yogi, Living with the Himalayan masters, Apprenticed to a Himalayan Yogi. Watch as many inspirational movies as possible. Failure has a lot to teach us than success, watch tragedies. Watch comedies, there is no medicine like laughter.

Read as many books as possible, preferably biographies. It is a good time to take up boxing/kung fu /karate, you sound like you can really break some bricks "better to break something than to sob in silence." And lastly, if it is possible to avenge them in a least damaging way to you, avenge them, but being a nice person you will feel bad after that.

Let go. Its OK to be upset. Its what humans do. There is no forgiveness of others unless you can acknowledge to yourself that your reactions are in the ball bark of normality. Next realize that you resentment is controlling you. Those who have hurt you are controlling and reducing the quality of your life. Take an action to shirt your thinking. So here comes the hard part. What most will not do (1 in 16 people on average) look for the role you play in the problem.

Did you do something to them and they were retaliating? Did _ you set your self up in away that may have attracted their actions? Take full control of your life. Learn what you can do to avoid.the same things in future. If your problems are always someone else's fault you can't do any to change them. Lets take our power back. Realize the people who hurt you are sick. And you cant cure them.

Can you reverse their' behavior and be happy? No you cannot. Forgive your self for allowing them to hurt you and then realize that sick people do bad things. They are blinded by greed or hate or just competitive. They are human. Don't let them control you any longer. Then write a short letter of forgiveness it does not matter if you mean it. Just write it what you thin you did that allowed it to happen. Put the letter in drawer. Do not mail it. Go back in a week and read the letter. It works every time. But very few will do it they just suffer and give their power away to the people that hurt them. Healing starts when you start to forgive. Cheers!