Eusexua, the most powerful experience.

Lately, I have been diving deeper and deeper into my eusexua experience. While walking through the dirty streets of S?o Paulo, I look at the people around me, imagining how they are experiencing their lives. I mean, I’m really trying to approach my life as a kind of scientific experiment—going out, observing everything I do, everyone I interact with, my feelings, my body, my brain. I see people out there and wonder how they’re processing all the information. Life, as an experience, is so individual. No one will ever truly know how someone else is feeling.

I watch people heading to church on a Sunday morning and others going to clubs at midnight, while I’m just there, trying to solve my own life’s jigsaw puzzle. I kinda wonder: why do people do what they do? I guess no one really knows the “right” thing to do, but there are so many self-proclaimed judges pretending they do. Is this their eusexua experience? Connecting to something completely unknown? I kinda understand them. I mean, I really like the concept of the perfect stranger. I love walking into a room full of fools and realizing it’s okay to be a fool—or better yet, being a fool in a room of fools, where everyone is just being themselves and not worrying about anything else. Just people existing and experiencing this powerful miracle called EUSEXUA.

And then, when Twigs sings, “Sometimes I feel like I’m not even trying, sometimes I feel miles away,” it makes me want to dive into my own mind—or maybe it feels like I’m having an out-of-body experience. I see myself every single morning, feeling so broken, wondering which way I should go. And then, my feet just start moving away because I have to do what I have to do. So, I keep going. I hold on.

Jumping back to the clubs, Perfect Stranger is such an amazing track. The way Twigs normalizes the act of just going out, meeting strangers, and not wanting to know anything more about them—“You’re a stranger, so you’re perfect”—feels like a lesson in finding eusexua. It’s almost as if, to fully embrace this feeling, you need to turn your auto-focus on and hold it closer and closer.

All of this makes me realize how miraculous it is to be alive. Living itself is a miracle, and eusexua is the essence of it.

Release yourself. Free yourself.