Epifiny

"Epifiny" explains a type of feeling that can't be expressed by a normal human. But, of course, a writer can! Sometimes I feel like every creative person branched from an alien species. (Bazinga!) 

Anyway, I recently went on a one-day trip. I took a train with my friends to Khatu Sham, Jaipur. During that trip, there were a lot of things that made a place in my long-term memory. One of them is this little incident on the train! First, to all my readers, I request never to travel by train, if you are going to a holy place. Trust me you don't want to go through the night I had. 

So, I want to use the loo at night. My friends warned me about the crowded lane. However, I was not able to imagine the warning sign. So, when I look out of my birth, I saw almost 20-30 people sleeping on the floor. It was inexplicable, like Monica's hair in high humidity! So, to use the loo, you have to make space for each step. The worse part was, a man lying in the middle with a fracture in his left hand and I had to make space near his hand to use the bathroom. But that's not the end. When I reached the end of the boogie, I saw almost the same crowd standing. Men, women, kids, and even oldies are standing in that area rudely telling people to go back. I was reluctant to go back for two reasons. First, my bladder was bursting with the cola I drank as alcohol. Second, I already felt miserable for the fractured man, I was out of the capacity to feel more. So, I make the space, regardless of their comments about my physical appearance! Keep body shaming people, this fat bitch like her curves! I finally reach the bathroom door. Pass through it, lock the door behind me, and took a deep breath. You can imagine the burning sensation in your nose when I use a deep breath and the local train's toilet in the same sentence. I did my business and decided to go back. I won't bore you with the return journey. Well, there is nothing much to say. It's the same but with less guilt and astonishment. 

The moral of the story is tons of things will stop you! Society, verbal comments, and maybe your guilt. However, you need to move forward to achieve what you want to do!