Double Bay to Baulkham Hills
I started my new role in March 2020. After being in the beautiful office for 7 days I was sent home. Since then, I am one of the fortunate ones who has kept their jobs and have continued to work full time throughout Covid albeit from my front room in Double Bay, and now currently in the garage of my parent in laws ‘out West’.
I, like most people, have endured a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions over the last few months and am not embarrassed to say there have been days where I have been sad for no reason and spent so much time feeling frustrated that I haven’t baked banana bread, ran marathons before 7am or reinvented the wheel.
I have however, after a few months made some changes, or more, additions to my life which as I reflect, I feel happy about, and aim to stop pressuring myself to keep up with the Jonesy’s.
In August I bought a house which I am currently renovating, in September I found a new local dance school and am enjoying weekly Latin and ballroom private lessons (with a target to perform by the end of the year) and I have started using Duolingo to learn Italian.
There are 2 things however that I am most proud of, and even though it took me a solid 6 months to get to this stage, I made it. I signed up with Catholic Care and committed to befriend an elderly person with a phone call once a week. I also committed to calling friends and family in the UK more often, which is easier now I am not commuting home and can call on an evening walk.
There are also goals I have set that I have not met…
I do not mediate everyday
I do not walk for at least one hour everyday
I do not do daily affirmations or listen to Audible consistently.
But do you know what…I am realising that it is ok. I don’t want to look back on this time and regret not overachieving, or feeling like I wasted time, whatever I did/am doing, feels right for me now and that is all I can ask for.
Even if the best thing you have ‘achieved’ throughout Covid is surviving and making it through, that is good too. Just because we have a pandemic does not suddenly mean we are all meant to become super fit, productive and over achievers, just being us is ok too.