Don't celebrate what you have done, celebrate who you have become.

I have thought about writing one of those end-of-year posts where I share all the amazing things I have done this year, something like 'I wrote a book, started my business, and gave my first keynote'. However, it doesn't feel right to list things I have done, or to name impressive feats, or to put my yearly worth and value into events, when this year has been so much more.

What if instead of sharing success, triumphs, or things we have done, we shared our growth, vulnerabilities, and reflections about whom we have become instead?

At the end of the year, many sit down to share the great things they have done, goals they have achieved and boxes ticked. Sure, I have done some of these too, but these aren't my greatest achievements.

This year, I built myself up again, from a moment when everything changed. I rebuilt my confidence, self-belief, courage, and self-trust.

When I think about this year and what I have achieved, it isn't the book or business growth that matters most, it's the resilience, courage, belief, and self-compassion I have shown that I am most proud of.

Around 18 months ago I was made redundant out of the blue. No prior conversation, no warning, not even the slightest feeling that this might be on the cards. When my colleagues started calling and texting me that afternoon to ask if I was OK, I had no idea what they were talking about. It didn't occur to me that a redundancy email waiting for me in my inbox might be why.?

Reading the email whilst a colleague watched via facetime was one of the most surreal moments I have experienced. I felt alone, abandoned, and utterly shocked.?

This was a turning point in my life and pivotal to what I have achieved this year. This event saw me retreat back to being uncertain, with no confidence and believing I wasn't good enough. I spent 6 months here.

The last 12 months though have been different. I have somehow found the courage, confidence, and belief that I am enough, that I can do great work, and that I can make a difference. This was no easy thing to overcome. Lots of deep work, coaching, building back belief in myself, finding the courage to take risks, and backing myself after being told this wasn't worth pursuing.

This year, this is what I have achieved. This is my value, worth, and who I am. Yes, it is wonderful to look back and acknowledge things such as having a book published, but it is the internal work that matters more. It is the internal work I am most proud of when I think about the year.

I didn't set out with this intention. I didn't know I was going to be made redundant and have to build from scratch something I thought I was already on my way to doing, I didn't know I was going to lose all faith and belief in myself and have to spend countless hours in coaching sessions unpacking everything, and I didn't know I would have to rebuild trust in myself. Despite not knowing these things, I did them anyway.?

This is what happens when you show up for yourself and when your mission is bigger than you. When you realize the work you are doing isn't about a business, but creating change, impact, and evolution.?

This is what I have achieved this year.