Don’t allow anyone to control the directions of your path; you know you, follow your instincts, it’s your secondary brain.

Where do I begin, this a story for many of us, often a lot of the decisions we make as adults is dependent upon our childhood experiences, our exposures to our environment and surroundings, how we are raised and who we become before even actually realising who we are, what we want to be in our adult life or what direction in life do we want to take. If you are someone who lacked confidence in all areas of her or himself, than you defiantly would have had your path directed for you, told what or who you would be or even had your future dictated for you? That was me. I was regularly told that I would be a no body and for yours it became my belief.???

We are all individuals, like any other I had a right to live life how I wanted to, I never knew that I could, all my decisions where based on what my parents thought of me, what others thought of me and no matter what I did, I was made to feel that I will only be a labour, a house wife a mother and nothing more.?It breaks my heart o even think that many of times ?it was not even the spoken words, it was the way people stared at me, looked down upon me without even knowing me I felt judged before the even spoke to me. I was a simple girl, no fuss, not fancy just plain and simple right through to my adult life I was plain and simple. I had no idea of how to match colours, put garments together, what went with what, my hoar was long always plated in tow long plates. Never knew how to wear makeup up.?I was just a simple, plain, young girl.

It took yrs before any change came, when life through me where I had no one, I fell to the rock bottom and the only choice I had was either to give up, stop caring or get up and face myself, my challenges and belief that I can?change.

I started with small baby steps, the first point was to re-evaluate me, who was I? Why are ??????evaluating myself was so important. I needed to understand was there anything positive about me, was I capable of doing anything different before I went ahead leaped in to something ?that I could not do.?

I was not in any way gifted, neither was a natural intelligent person that captured things with a click of a finger! ?the lack of belief in myself only fuelled the directions of others and what they had of me,?sadly for me without even thinking, knowing ?or challenging myself I followed there directions whilst they succeeded I continued to fall until I fell so deep that getting back up for me seemed impossible.

I learnt the hard way, battling through every aspect of my life, challenges never stop, no one knows what their future is going to be when they are born, and no one is born knowing who they will become. However I know that all of us have one thing in common, that is our gut, our instincts whilst many like me may need more reassurance or support than others to carry on remember that is OK for as long as you and you alone take control of your decision making. For as long as you know the route or career you have chosen to take is your choice and your choice alone, so when you question your decision making you don’t have to blame or find fault anywhere else, whilst it may not be easy to admit to your own mistakes, remember it does not allow you to put blame anywhere else.

My life journey has taught me so much and the toughest lesson I learnt is to love myself, believe that I am capable of making change even if it takes me longer than other to make that for as long I keep going it’s ok, no one can love me more than me, if I well in myself it is only then can I make a difference for others. I was taken out of school by mother at age of 16, had no education, no life skills and now work opportunities until things became so tough that I didn’t have money to feed my babies, I remember counting not my 20ps, but my 1ps and adding those 1ps meant everything to me.

I never got any attention from any one most of my childhood in to my teens; all I wanted was to be noticed to be liked so the only thing I knew was to please others. ?The biggest mistake one can make because when every around you collapses I was alone.

Learn to love you, stand for what is right for you and what you believe in, have a vision a focus just keep going, don’t talk ill about yourself to anyone including your own self, don’t be little yourself and certainly keep away from negativity energy, then see how change starts to take place. ?