DO YOU REALLY WANT TO BE ENLIGHTENED?

What happens when you drop all your anger of years, your hurt, your resentment of many many years?

You might think you will feel relieved. You will feel lighter. That is what all spiritual growth teachings have told you.

But think about it. You have had all these anger, all this pain, all this resentment for so many many years. Sure you were holding on to it. And then it just disappears one day? Do you really think you will feel relieved, lighter?

Won't you be perplexed, even disturbed? That if all this could have just gone so easily - then why were you holding on to these for so many years? Why couldn't you have dropped all these sooner? And had you dropped these much sooner in life, how would your life have turned out to be? Where would you have been?

You see, we humans are so used to justifying where we are in life because of all the hurt, pain and anger. And to have all these justifications disappear all in one go? No more excuses for how your life turned out to be. Any which way your life turned out to be was all you and your choices. Nobody else was responsible. Nobody's hurt, pain, insults, betrayals stopped you. No one, nothing stopped you. You and only you stopped you.

Somewhere this ego of yours knows that you would be disturbed and not relieved. So it is better to hold on to the pain because the pain is comfortable. The pain is something you have got used to. But the disturbance - it is a disturbance of the status quo. It is the unknown. The ego says - the known is better than the unknown. There is safety in the known. Unknown is dangerous.

So you keep holding on. You stay hurt. You stay angry. You keep feeling the pain which you and only you are creating. And then your life of the known is perfect. After all, why would you hold on to something so dearly if you knew that is not just not perfect but outright disastrous?

Think About It! ~ Anil Dagia