Discovering Your Truth
Today has been one of those days that I didn't expect but desperately needed to have for my own discovery. So my life has been anything but normal lately. There have been so many hills and valleys that have been both happy and disheartening to believe. We never expect to end up at points in our lives where we feel lost.
I've journeyed to this point where I've alienated friends and family. Seeing the flaws that you so desperately try to hide come to the surface to affect the people whom you love. I never had intentions to hurt anyone. I am struggling with my issues of control and fear of abandonment. These are things I rarely discuss. Because in my mind if that if I acknowledge them and discuss them that they will manifest into my life and that scares me.
I wake up every day wanting to help and serve others. To live my life with integrity and that my word means something to someone. I've made my fair share of mistakes but my fear of failure has begun to creep in a bit. I am putting this out to make myself read my own words and know its truth. There is someone who pointed these things out to me. I couldn't deny my truth. It was a splash of cold water to the face.
I am liable for my own destructive actions and behavior. I know that this is hard to write. The tears represent the person I hate that I am...but there is hope and that is what my saving grace is...I can change and keep the ones I love in my life. This so hard but necessary. So to everyone who reads this... Thank you. To the person who cared enough to make me face facts...thank you. I am ready to change. My actions will have to speak volumes or this is just a shallow attempt to be genuine. Have a great day friends.
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4 年Gabriel E. Leal I respect your vulnerability. We all have parts of us to heal. You’re definitely not alone in that. I lived most my life in the trauma/self sabotage loop. I did the work yet years later I still struggled with certain patterns and character defects I didn’t know how to squash. Enter stage right: energy healing. I discovered that I was still energetically attached to the traumas and triggers like abandonment, fears, anger etc. I had no idea energy was the missing piece for me and so many others. When I released those energetic attachments I was finally free.
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4 年Gabriel E. Leal, I imagine that writing (and sharing) that may have felt like taking a deep and cleansing breath. Thank you for sharing this with your #linkedinfam who are here for you and have your back?? #humanshelpinghumans As you read these words right now...stop, and take another one of those deep, cleansing breaths. And know that you are courageous and powerful beyond measure. ?????? P.S. I just sent you DM, my friend!
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4 年Your words speak about the truth in many of us. What is most amazing about you is your self awareness, continuously pushing yourself to align with who you want to become...regardless of what life may throw at you. Keep at it my friend. I believe in you. You may not realize it but your dream has already become a reality and you’ve touched more people than you will ever know. ??
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4 年Gabriel E. Leal First of all I would like to appreciate your bravery for sharing this on the medium. Almost everyone goes through this and no one shares. The very moment a conversation with a friend who will not judge you for anything will help. I am a chat away my friend.