Dear GOD.....

Dear GOD,

How are you doing right now? Yes, It’s me again for the thousandth time today. GOD, I am tired,weary and frustrated. How many times have you heard that LORD? I say I am tired....I wonder how tired JESUS was when HE spent 40 days and 40 nights in the desert? I wonder how tired JESUS was as HE traveled with HIS disciples and performed HIS MIRACLES? I hear your voice saying,"Gretchen,be quiet & count your blessings my child." My reply,"Yes, LORD,please forgive me for my ignorance. It's not supposed to be about Gretchen, it's always supposed to be about you GOD. So what can I do for you right now GOD, other than be quiet & listen to you?"

Let me thank you GOD because the strength that I do have,comes from you. The JOY that is in me, is YOU. The LOVE that I feel deep in my heart,is from JESUS. My PEACE, well you have BLESSED me with YOUR PEACE, the PEACE that passes all understanding. Now you know, that I know, that I have all of these things, why do I ask questions? Why do I fear? Why do I doubt?

Why do I hear JESUS saying to me, "You of little faith? Do you not know what I am capable of? Did you forget who I am?"  Is it because right now, I can't control a thing, and it's ALL IN YOUR HANDS? Is it because I am at your MERCY, CRYING out to you in the desert, desperately seeking acknowledgement from you? Could it be because I am SO UNCOMFORTABLE? I mean REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE! GOD, did I mention how UNCOMFORTABLE I am right now? I can see you smiling now, down on me, thinking, yup, I have her right where I need her. Yup, not going to move her either! Time to start up the good old pottery wheel because Gretchen is on it, time for more shaping and molding. Hence, that's why my headache right?? Round and round I go. You would think I would get use to this by now, but not this hard headed daughter.

I look to you because you are the only one with the answers. You are the lamp that lights my path. I lean on you because I know what happens when I lean on my own understanding. You say,”cast my burdens onto you.” Well GOD, I hope you are ready for a windfall. I have an abundance of lures, tied flies, buckeyes and more! I cry out to you because I KNOW YOU HEAR ME, and your GRACE, LOVE & MERCY dry my tears. You hear every prayer I say and you always answer them with yes, no or not now. I listen to you because I trust you and you won't ever forsake me. For you created me! I also know the consequences of not being obedient and yes, I fear you GREATLY!

As I say all of this to you, what I know, what I feel, what I question, I hear you speaking so loud and clearly. Like the sound of rain drops hitting a tin roof on a spring day. Like the sound of the wind whipping through trees during a dark storm. Like the sound of a baby bird chirping for food from its mother. I hear you loud and clear GOD. Yes, Oh YES LORD...”GRETCHEN STEP OUT OF THE WAY. LET ME BE GOD, THERE ISN'T ROOM FOR BOTH OF US HERE!”

I thank you GOD for ALWAYS speaking to me and for my ability and humbleness to HEAR YOU and OBEY YOU. Keep me HUMBLE LORD, on my knees please! Ask & you shall receive, I surrender GOD! YOU LEAD THE WAY!

I LOVE YOU GOD!

XOXO Your Daughter Gretchen