Dear 2020

Dear 2020

You bent time and pushed me a step closer into the loving arms of my dreams and desires. You altered my life and positioned me to take a dive into the realms of my inner being; more so than ever before; to find the shining armor of faith. To find my sword to kill demons who lived in me.

I jolted away from all that bound me, bent me; I jolted away untangling the knots and shackles of imprisoning visiting cards and delusional excel sheets. You made me wear my glasses and look closely at hoo-manss, who were around me; loved me; and I smiled to realize that they had great smiles, hadn't ever noticed before.

You let me fly without ever having to find an excuse or response for the red dots and full stops; cause it was meant for all in the world. I wasn't the only one stopping; perhaps I was definitely one willing to stop. I longed to stop. Stop being crazy; not stop moving closer to my goals.

It started as a fleeting affair with the newness of ignorance about the past life and the future and quickly turned into a steaming passionate roll on the beach with myself, me and mine. I flirted with the dreams and the holistic passions I had locked up, so many years ago, into a box and shoved under my bed to make ends meet and earn a living. To fend for loved ones and for self; not realizing that I wasn't fending but offending myself. The money I had made helped me sleep; but it didn't help when I was awake.

Soothsayers felt that if I ever stopped to breathe I would stop breathing. I found the air in my lungs with deep draws of yogic and meditative rituals which now are the only way I begin my day. I found my curves and bent them, loved them, I found my twisted nerves and soothed them, I found my bed and slept in it for late hours, My shower has amazing hot water, I love the smell of my soap, I found my knife and cut food to warm my soul, I found my house and realized how warm and welcoming it was, my plants are green!... and finally I found my meaning; I wasn't going to run anymore, I was going to rise.

Thank you 2020. You made me live again. You helped me live a full year just for me, for myself. I am going to miss you.

Hello 2021; Don't even try to make me a money mongering, plane switching, crazy deaf to birds again. Stay in your limits. Come in quietly. Don't make any noise. Easy now...I will make the rules. You stand there silently and watch me teach you what life should be like. You can bring all the surprises from global news; honestly you won't get my attention. And when we are friends; let's make this a ride of a life time! (Oh I've removed my door bell, I don't like loud noises; so knock gently).

Happiness isn't about you as the NEW year, It's about ME and the NEW me is doing just fine!