DE-Nial

DE-Nial (refusal to acknowledge)

Being in denial is a hiding place, the outer appearance shown is strength, and this is what many people want to be seen. I will be real with you; I lived in the hiding place, a place of placing something, someone, out of sight. The hiding place was how my mind supported the covering of many emotions, feeling overwhelmed, hollow inside, sadness.

Over-all, I wondered why I held back tears and sent out anger looks, refused hugs toward those who reached out with loving arms and words of love. I tried not to shed a tear or show other signs that the loss happened. The drive of this was a shield, this cover up held a wall in all areas of my life I pushed back from people not allowing and not responding to people, and in doing this I was harming myself physically causing diverse levels of stress and anxiety.

I became aware that I must expect grief to be a process. In the process came strong emotions; fatigue, loneness, not eating, fear, guilt, anger, not sleeping, not communicating. Grief is a strong, on occasion an overwhelming emotion regardless of whether sadness from the loss of a loved one or from a life-threatening diagnosis that someone they love has received.

Many times, I felt numb, however, continued to do my daily doings, work, church. I have read that this process for many can go on for months and even years. Last for months or years. My God.

Grief is a natural expression of loss in our life that creates a void. Yes, it is painful; it is a regretful emotion when our loved one has left this life on earth. We are made up of three parts—mind, body, and soul.

These three parts are each unique as well as different, however, each part affects the other. Even though mind, body, and soul have a different function they each affect the other.

“Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am in distress; my eye is wasted from grief; my soul and my body also.” (Psalm 31:9 ESV)

Grief is the natural expression of loss in your life that creates a void. It is a painful, sorrowful emotion at the loss or impending loss of someone or something that has deep meaning for you. We are all made up of three parts—mind, body, and soul. These parts are each unique and different, yet each part affects the other. While mind, body, and soul each have contrasting functions they each affect the other. Throughout the Psalms, King David shows the impact of grief on his whole person: “Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am in distress; my eye is wasted from grief; my soul and my body also.” (Psalm 31:9 ESV).

Let’s continue to seek GOD for His guidance, daily in every area of our LIFE.

GRIEF

G rateful

R estoration

I nspiration

E mpower

F aith

Psalm 34:18

"The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit."

2 Corinthians 1:3-4

"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God."

Matthew 5:4

"Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted."

John 14:27

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid."

Joshua 1:9

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths."

Philippians 4:6-8

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things."

Healing after loss will take time, but then again God confirms that the pain will not last longer than you or I can handle.

JESUS!

Spiritual Guidance Through Alzheimer's Dis-Ease: Porter, Kimberly V: 9781793959454: Amazon.com: Books