Courage Is The Root Of Change

Courage is the root of change!

The choice we make to act differently and make behavioral changes is the result of that courage.

I hope you help others to endeavor in this, it is your noble profession. When you do this, know you have support, know you have others who see you and respect your courage.

The words in in English don’t resonate enough with me. The? words which fill me with the joy belong to my mother and her native language. Orgullo and Apoyo

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If you live with love and show your strength in vulnerability I want you to know you to know that? “te apoyo y eres orgullosamente ser humano”.

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?I have found my place. Reading the books of my hero have pointed me in the right direction. The direction of finding mentorship in places you least expect it. The hero that helped me realize I am where i need to be is Anthony Bourdain. He often spoke of people who work in the service industry as misfits. People who could not find where they fit in to “normal” society. We find when we are broken we find others who are similarly broken and often connect with us in the perfect ways. Our jagged broken pieces fit together perfectly. I may not be right for you. The people i work with may not be right for you. We are indeed right for each other and that’s what home feels like.

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I found myself recently crying in a a large meeting. I reacted poorly. I cried I felt rage for the people who witnessed my vulnerability. My head spun and I lost all sense of what is right. I knew how to be better and I didn’t act with respect for myself or others. I felt the sting of the pain of loss. Instead of recognizing my pain and understanding it and allowing myself the grace and peace to hold that emotion. I lashed out. My rage turned to shame and embarrassment. I was reminded by a close friend that I am also human and that sometimes I need to recognize my shortcomings and forgive myself for them too, just as I do for others. 3 days later my boss called me into his office. He yelled at me and chastised me for avoiding him since the prior week. You don't know him, if you did you would say he is kind but not nice, he is loving but a complete jerk. We often talk and share ideas, he knew I was avoiding him even if I refused to admit it to myself. He reintroduced the pain we were both feeling. I hate seeing this man cry. He is strong, gregarious, and has the kindest soul you will ever encounter. He understands people and when he cares for you he shows you that your flaws are why he loves you. He sees your qualities and respects them but truly loves you because your flaws define what you are not. Our flaws only prove that we are better than our worst instincts. To find a community that recognizes your shortcomings as a human being only prove you are? worthy of love and compassion, this is finding your home. The courage to show these flaws and work to be better is the root of change I work to see in myself. I found myself crying with him, and instead of shame I felt the comfort of home.

There are a fortunate few people who grew up entirely in one home with two parents. They have a place and time that feels like home. I bounced between parents, and homes who did their best to show me love and what a home is. Having this as my background. I grew up and didn’t know the feeling of home. My parents did their best i think i just felt something less when i bounced between LA and Las Vegas. Its okay many of us don't have that type of stability in our lives. We all face our own challenges and i see yours and love you because of them. Maybe me not having it helped me be the man i am today. Maybe you living your life and having your experiences put you in the path of me loving you too.

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If you found your place as a child or had to find it later, then, you are a part of my community, you are part of my circle, you belong to a group that strives for being better and not just doing better.