Count your blessings

“If we never experience the chill of a dark winter, it is very unlikely that we will ever cherish the warmth of a bright summer’s day. Nothing stimulates our appetite for the simple joys of life more than the starvation caused by sadness or desperation. In order to complete our amazing life journey successfully, it is vital that we turn each and every dark tear into a pearl of wisdom, and find the blessing in every curse.” 

― Anthon St. Maarten, Divine Living: The Essential Guide To Your True Destiny

Lately I have been going through a rough path and through my falling I have questioned my existence on earth.Although my confidence and self esteem was shaken badly,my faith and beliefs kept me going.On top on that I have an amazing network of friends who were/are so supportive and reminded me that I should hope for a better tomorrow.

Through my lowest time I have learnt to be more humble and how to live a minimalist life.Things that once gave me power and joy became non important and through rigorous selection I set new priorities in life.

Once on top,the power and pay differences tend to give individuals status and prestige.However what make us unique is the value we add to companies or to the people we work with.But what everybody should remember is nobody likes the boss, and you are lonely at the top. You are the person who always has to make the decision, right or wrong. Wrong decisions may screw-up your job. On top of that there are legal liabilities as well as restrictions that some others don't have.

So where we stand when we reached the end of the road? After months of agonies and despairs I recharged my batteries and with the first fiveish with an incredibly bright, creative, thinking-outside-of-the-box attitude I have decided for a full makeover of my priorities,choices and decisions.

I am not saying this time I will be right or wrong but ultimately the responsibility for the final decision rests with me. When it appeared that low confidence and self esteem might have damaged my status quo it is my job to make the decision, right or wrong and to go along with whatever life throws at me.

To decide whether a change is right for you, you have to weigh the pros and cons. You have to decide what best suits you and what's best for you, not what matters to someone else. However, if you don't like being responsible for the actions of yours and others changes the way you do things may be a bad choice. In the real world, it's not going to be that cut and dried. There will be some things that appeal to you and some that don't. You have to weigh all these factors and decide.

As for me,changes welcomed a new way forward.Friends,family and people around me supported me to see priorities from new perspectives.

Nevertheless I learnt to ask for help.I was far too proud to seek for help especially when I needed most.While it may sound simple enough, accepting help is something that is extremely challenging for all of us at one time or another. It can be especially hard for those of us who believe that seeking help undermines our independence and our ability to cope. However, by refusing to accept help, we disregard the fact that we are social beings who need to cooperate with one another in order to thrive.Not wanting to show vulnerability can cause us to refrain from asking for help. When we think about it, the emotional exposure required to ask another for help can be quite uncomfortable.

One of my favourite book about vulnerability is written by Brene Brown and this book is a hidden gem by all means.Its called “Braving the wilderness” and teaches to embrace the way you are,the quest for true belonging and the courage to stand alone.

Furthermore it teaches us vulnerability is a luggage filled with emotions that govern behavior, it’s safe to assume that seeking help would be the emotion most closely linked to violating a rule that swallowing up our pride.

Once in a position to accept help the transformative power of art is in this sharing.If another person is being kind in offering help, accepting it at face value is the first step. Yes, there are people with bad intentions, but there are also those who want to do good by others.In my case I found out there are angels among us humans.When we think of angels we think of beautiful beings with wings. This is not always the case; there are angels who walk among us on earth that are real people with a mortal body. These wonderful people seem to be sent from above and are just what we need at the moment we need them.

But a funny thing has happened to me since then. I actually feel. . . Blessed.Humbled. Relief. Freedom. Happiness. Optimism about what lies ahead.I am in complete control of everything once again. Now the rest of it has been handed to me, if not on a silver platter, then perhaps on one made of old copper. The kind that has turned so green you would initially discard it as worthless, but when you take a closer look and clean it properly, you realise its value is far more than you ever imagined.

My friends,family and my protective angels taught me the truth.I have to remain strong and have faith.I have to believe more.I have to pray more and trust my Creator.I have no idea what lies ahead. What I’m looking at, what I’m facing, it’s madness — both in the literal and figurative sense. But I’m not frightened. At this very moment, I’m not so much as batting an eyelash at what may come. I can handle it, whatever “it” may turn out to be.

The road, for me, it’s come to an end. In front of me there is a dense jungle, filled with all sorts of dangerous things. But I have made myself a pathway in, and I know that while danger awaits, so does rare beauty.

And for that I would like to thank to all people who supported me through my journey.And to sum up my article I share this quote with you.:

“Live your truth. Express your love. Share your enthusiasm. Take action towards your dreams. Walk your talk. Dance and sing to your music. Embrace your blessings. Make today worth remembering.” 

― Steve Maraboli, Unapologetically You: Reflections on Life and the Human Experience