Confidence or lack thereof?

Is it really incompetence

Or have I just lost my confidence?

I’ve no idea where it went,

Now it’s down to zero percent.

Perhaps I dropped it on the ground,

Where it fell without a sound.

Or maybe shattered into a thousand pieces

As my sense of desperation increases.

I’ve looked under the cushion in my favourite chair.

But alas it wasn’t there.

I then searched every drawer,

Even the ones I’ve searched before.

In front of my house I called it by name,

But the result was just the same.

I put up posters in my neighbourhood,

But they didn’t do any good.

Did it run away from home?

Choosing rather to roam?

Did it get lost trying to find its way back,

Leaving it wandering down some deserted track?

Or maybe it didn’t leave of its volition.

Someone took it without my permission,

Leaving me in perdition.

This at least is my suspicion.

It was only once he’d gone

That I realized he wasn’t a simple add on.

Rather without him it’s hard to get things done

Without him you can’t be number one.

Rather you’re at the bottom of the pile.

Self doubt is not a winning style

You’re stepping on the lowest ladder rung,

And the devil’s got you by the tongue.

It’s hard without it to make new friends,

Or see the old ones and make amends.

So if perchance you see him somewhere,

Please tell him he’s missed beyond compare.

Don’t let him know of my despair,

But ask him to please visit his old friend

Who doesn’t want our relationship to end,

Who felt we made quite the team,

Who just needs a dose of self-esteem.