Confessions of a Ghostwriter: Beautifully in Over My Head
Robyn-Lee Samuels
LinkedIn Ghostwriter & Coach ?? I help B2B founders & consultants attract regular leads on LinkedIn using content, comments, and strategic outreach.
Feeling overwhelmed?
The struggle is REAL.
A month ago I added a new retainer client to my roster (YAY!), and it just feels like I'm constantly running after time.
In the background, there's a battle raging between my shadow self who wants nothing more than to crawl under a warm blanket and sleep until the world goes away...
... and the new me I'm trying to create who set big, scary, audacious goals for this year.
It all feels too much.
I know it's not, though. I know I can handle this, I've done it before.
I 4xed my revenue last year. I ghostwrited 10+ e-books in one month last year. I worked 14-hour days last year. This - this current workload is nothing (so why does it feel heavier?).
(Side note: I suppose I should mention that I kinda burnt out after my two most productive months ever.)
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Before, I could do 10,000 words a day because I silenced the inconvenience of grief, burnout, weariness, caring for others, and feeling - the voice that wanted to scream, the voice that told me to slow down, go to the family thing, go out with my friends.
Everything but work was inconvenient.
But eventually, the bottle we shove the inconvenient feelings and emotions of existence reaches capacity and it breaks.
And the years, the months, the hours of ignored emotion flood over you all at once.
It's overwhelming.
Now of course there's therapy, medication, books, and all that jazz to help one deal with the ocean of emotion and learn alternative, sustainable coping skills.
Still, the little one suddenly feels heavier because I'm choosing not to shove things into a bottle anymore. I'm choosing to navigate life (all of life) in the ocean.
And eventually, with help, I'll get a raft or a boat and the ocean will become a lake, then a pond, then a puddle. And my shadow self will need to learn (much to her chagrin) that those former comforts don't make the world go away.
But there's no going back. All you can do (all I can do) is learn to embrace all the joys and sorrows that life has to give.
Author of The HisShadowings Devotionals, Poet, Wife, Friend, Mother, Artist, Encourager, Believer, Student of the Word of the Lord. A Devotee to Jesus Christ
1 年Feeling it too girl. Life can run us ragged sometimes but O YES! Spring and warmth, sunshine and beauty are about to reinvigorate us all.
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1 年Beautiful post, thank you for sharing. Finding out how to anchor myself regardless of the state of surrounding water me has helped me move forward.
Experienced wordsmith; talented escapist
1 年Thank you for posting this! It resonates with me to the core! It’s so easy for people to think freelancing is the easy road, but it’s absolutely not! There’s so much sacrifice involved, especially when you’re weighing out your personal and professional self. This is excellent! Thank you again !
A dancer, researcher and writer occasionally turning to poetry for comfort.
1 年A beautifully weaved reflective post. ??
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1 年Healing is exhausting and challenging. Your future self is going to be thankful. This was a beautiful and honest reflection.