THE COIN OF OLD
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I'm an old man now,
??phantom unseen,
unknown even to my old self.
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I'm an old man now,
??listened but not heard.
Who I was no longer exists.
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I'm an old man now,
??seldom joined by the young.
Ignored by the alphabet generations.
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I'm an old man now,
??never asked for what he knows,
unquestioned beliefs say they know better.
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I'm an old man now,
??the white beard and the Kangol cap,
silently and too slowly walking his dog.
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I'm an old man now,
??unable to stop the world's self-demolition,
resigned to the cruelty of humanity.
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I'm an old man now,
??on the final portion of the journey,
the ending's fears dripping and percolating.
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?????HEADS
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I'm an old man now,
??ungrasping, unclinging, letting be as is.
No longer requiring others' eyes to be seen.
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I'm an old man now,
??unbound and unrepentant.
Able to speak straight, without apprehension.
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I'm an old man now,
??soul channel open without static,
arrogance abandoned inviting the eternal.
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I'm an old man now,
???liberated from who I thought I was,
higher wisdom preceded by astonishing revelations.
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I'm an old man now,
??grace, bliss, compassion, patience,
now regular and peace-keeping partners.
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I'm an old man now,
??jealousy, envy, and lust subsided.
What were they about anyway?
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I'm an old man now,
?unmarried to earlier life events and conquests,
seduction by recognition obliterated by a higher calling.
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I'm an old man now,
??no real past, no reliable future
experiencing the unrestricted grace of the moment.
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I am an old man now,
??unchained from society's ambitions,
deep clawed desires and ambitions released.
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I am an old man now,
??able to move his thoughts aside
realizing the mind only cares about itself.
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I am an old man now,
??free at last, free at last, finally free at last.
Warmly welcoming my true self to myself.
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I am an old man now,
??completely awake to heads you win, tails you lose.
Winning far more than ever before, constantly flipping the coin.
I call heads.
Marc Cooper