Coco Series - 1- Why don't I feel the love!

I always wished for a dog, right from age 8 or so. I wished for someone who follows me everywhere and actually proves the saying - Man's best friend.

When my son was 7 years old, we welcomed "Simba" in our house for a temporary stay. We enjoyed with him so much. He was just a puppy. It was hard to let him go. My son insisted "Mamma, I need a Dog." When I thought about it, I knew I couldn't handle it, as everything would come on me. "On your 10th birthday, I will get you. That day you will be responsible enough to take your own dog's responsibility."

When we shifted to our new house, I suddenly felt the urge that we have it all and now it's time to get our Doggy. So, me and my son, window shopped, and we choose him online.

My son couldn’t decide what to choose for our new doggy's name. So, I explained him the exercise "Exercise to De-clutter the chaos".

In 5 mins he had made his choice and was very confident on it. We family members also voted yes to the name.

When the solution is simple, God is answering.
-Albert Einstein        

Weeks went by and my son was crazy in love with Coco. My daughter was just ok. The society kids, the guards, neighbor's, everyone was just charmed. Only I couldn't make out my feelings.

Why was I not feeling the love and I had always wanted a Dog!

One night I just sat down and had a deep conversation with me. What is my problem, why don't I feel love and I usually feel love for everyone.

Thats when my inner voice came back - You are taking Coco as another task. You are burdened with huge number of tasks already and Coco has now come as an added task. Kids just enjoy the fun, but the mother after all has to do the shitty stuff. I was tired of a house full of sussy and potty. My inner voice also told me that if you were not ready for it why did you take the responsibility.

I realized my mistake. Coco was just a baby, and it was his job as a baby to create a mess!         

When I choose to bring him to my house, I have to choose to welcome him to my heart with all the baggage he brings!

A few days after I had my moment with Coco.

I was working, and I suddenly noticed him sitting below my bed waiting for me. I realized he had been following me everywhere, making me feel so special. I was so important to him. It felt good to be the center of someone's life!

Though I couldn't look at his eyes, because of all the fur, lol, I still felt the love I was looking for.

That was our moment and I finally fell in love with Coco!

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