Co-dependency a Social Dis-ease

You are NOT your Story! You are not defined by your past and each experience is there to assist you to remember who you are. Many are attempting to SAVE-FIX and HELP others within the 'Rescuer program' and even saying this many may REJECT these words.

• Life and society may reject you, and that is okay.
• The path is to never reject your passion and free spirit.

Many are running blind and lost in FEAR and in-grained programs of survival. This it is a scary and exhausting place to be AND is a reason why there is so much co-dependency.

• Every RELATIONSHIP you have had, you have ATTRACTED it.
• Every event is there as a TEACHER, yes, every event.

The Intimate Relationship with YOUR partner is not there to meet all your needs and relying on them to 'Feel good and be happy' is co-dependence dressed up.

The other day I had an interview with @Michael De Haan to support Women's EMPOWERMENT. I rarely share my story and it is reason why I put it into books as it is like a series of chapters. It was there to ACCESS inner knowing by DIRECT life experience to then guide others into the darkest aspects of life. This interview may be a CATALYST for you to begin to SEE through fresh eye and a perspective from a woman that has come out the other sides.

• Victim to FREEDOM.
• Survival to THRIVING
• I'll give the compass to find your way HOME
• I will walk alongside you until you walk and dance to BEAT of YOUR OWN DRUM.

Watch thee interview that is a must watch if you are stuck and attached to the STORY of your past, your pain, suffering or your abuse.

Here is an insight into co-dependence, a Poem taken from Raw – a key to a woman’s heart & Soul – Zoe Bell. This would be my second book and from the chapter on Trauma – all rights reserved Zoe Bell

This was a raw life experiences from the ages of 21-28 years of age. (Solar plexus & Heart development) where 'The STORY NOW' means nothing. I came to earth for the EXPERIENCE of learning to be HU-man, all to gain direct understanding & INSIGHT and to guide others how to HEAL from the inside out. Yes, you can REWIRE and REWRITE the story within the NERVOUS SYSTEM.

Co-Dependence by Zoe Bell scribed, 2016

How did we end up

So distant and worlds apart?

Our words entangled in condemnation and hate

A constant struggle so stuck in the past

The fight to be right

So lost with no sight

??

Our Future once clear

Now crumbles around

A huge fucking mess

Tears and resistance

The ego’s persistence

To never let go

Shitty resentment

Pilled upon one another

A shit fight of the lost

??

We’re caught in the trap of co-dependence

Unwilling to release and surrender

To step away with our sanity

To dive deeper into the unknown

Follow the smart path to walk alone.

??

To give up the fight

To always be right

To preserve live and honour our truth

Yet lost in the resistance

Desperate defiance to be right

??

We get caught in the addiction

Within one another

Feeding like vampires

Never satisfied and hurt

Our egos in gridlock

Nowhere to turn

Except attempting to kill one another

Venomous games

??

What the fu3k are we doing

Fighting and hurting one another

Where did we go wrong?

To lose love altogether

I no longer want to be chained to your shame

Your bitter remarks, those bruises

Guilt of broken noses

And scratch marks

The physical marks heal in time

The emotional scars that cut like a knife

Like daggers dug into my heart

Blended with moments of lost passion

Desperately fu#king within the dark

Many moments I said no

You took anyway

My voice unheard

You said I was yours to keep

To do as you pleased

I shrank within and silently wept

??

I don’t need to know why

You hated and abused me

It is none of my business

My heart feels empty

My soul long gone

Distant memories of laughter and fun

Thinking you were the one

A constant emotion of living in fear

What happened to us?

Where did we falter?

Our relationship

Scary rollercoaster

??

Walking on eggshells

Too afraid to speak up

Silenced by your fists

Unkind remarks in front of others

I longer wanted to feel the pain

With many times alone in despair

Brief moments of suicidal thoughts

Of ending it all

A quick release from hell

My cries of “no" never respected

Power taken away.

??

I have come to realise it was me

Who had to shift?

Remember my beauty and lost inner bliss

To start with self-love, self-worth

And appreciation

To accept responsibility as

You were my reflection

Of the hate within me

I was wanting to save you when

I was lost

Projecting my own victim games

A projected reality of the reflection

To give me some more

Living in insanity.

??

I didn’t want it or deserve it

Yet I take full ownership of the vibe

I was giving off

So, it starts with me

A willingness to let go of the rope

The fight ended

Okay, you have won

??

To break the chain of a toxic dysfunction

I am the stronger one

I walk away

And turn my back

Learning to love me again

Numbed out and almost forgotten

Re-claiming my power

With determination and passion

No longer silenced

I express my truth

As I am worthy and deserving

With nothing to do

I let you go

To be whatever you choose

??

I’ve released the shackles I once wore

No more care of what was before

The slate now cleared

The lesson learnt

New sense of freedom to be explored

The old toxicity dissolves in time

??

It takes personal power

To let someone go

Something you also had forgotten

Starting today

I wish you farewell

May you too find peace and sanity

And when I am ready

I will forgive you within my heart

For all that happened.

Now you are free to create your life of your own

One filled with hope, faith and a new day waits

A day to love you

And soften some more

??

I am grateful for the lesson

The karmic slate clean

My freedom restored

So put down your weapon

Forgiven the past

My warrior returned

Never to be forgotten

To fall in love with me

Set us both free from

The vice of co-dependant insanity

??

There is no winner

Simple humble warriors

Putting down their swords

To stop the fight

From co-dependence and violence

Victimisation and hate

To starting a new adventure

New chapter in life

To learn to love self

Before we ever think of another.

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Zoe Bell

What is keeping you bound in a pattern of co-dependence and are your ready and willing to BE FREE?

Connect for support, guidance HOW To HEAL and BE FREE.

I AM a conduit of healing light and each moment a new discovery,

If I can do this ANYONE can,

Zoe Bell

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