Chapter 22, done, 23 here we go!

Hey to you, every reader, viewer, feeler, thank you for being here right now and taking the time to read this.

Every now and then I review weeks, months or longer periods to see what I did achieve and most importantly, how I grew as a person.

The last months, actually almost a year, I've not been active on social media, not Instagram, facebook, twitter or linkedin. This was a conscious choice out of my heart.

Because I had to learn to let go and to build myself instead of show to others.

Building thyself is more important then to show to the outside world what you can do or what you've achieved.

But, despite me still focusing on hard work behind the scenes, I do want to share the ups and downs of my 22'nd year: Here we go;

28th of august 2022 I grabbed drinks with other contestants of the mister international Netherlands, a modelling pageantry I joined last year. Enjoyed the night and for the first time in a long time, I felt rejuvinated, I felt appreciated and that I was allowed to be me.

The weeks afterwards were stressfull with the upcoming of the finals of the pageantry, where I became 7th out of 17 and won the mister talent subtitle for some standup comedy.

Afterwards I distanced myself from the socials, I got to meet a lady that I gave my absolute all for 2 months, trying every trick of the book to make it work, but eventually, on january first 2023, I had to take my distance since it broke me more then build me up.

Then came developments with my finances, personal training is what I started to do as well, gave my first lecture and am booked for the second. Got in better and stronger shape & most importantly, I grew my peace.

Every bit above is what others might see, but the internal work, the late nights, the readings when I didn't want to, the walks when I was tired, the workouts when my muscles ached, the quitting of toxic habits as porn, alcohol, steroids, smoking, dopamine addictions.

The last year to me does not seem to have amazing results that I do wish to acquire, but, it does have the hard work. It does have the discipline, it does have the work ethic, focus, sacrifice, blood sweat and tears to keep growing.

My key in all this is that I've proven to myself that I do have what it takes and that I will keep developing as much as is possible, but sustainably.

The road to succes will show signs and I am reading all of them, very fortunate is that.

So, I will still keep my distance, I will keep putting in the hard work, so that I may achieve the goals I have, but most importantly, to manifest the vision I've received into reality.

''You don't have time to waste, but plenty of time to build''.

People who say: I don't have time or, you don't have enough time'', are often not disciplined in time management and making choices for the better future instead of a more comfortable today.

Be different, choose the growth, for you may very well be just 1 decision away from all that you dream of.

Live life the way you love to live!