Catching the Thoughts

Hi everyone, I just wanted to say I'm writing my second book and unpacking a lot of my own feelings about social media and how hard it is to keep up with the race. I've realized that somehow when I go to #malinisgirltribe on Facebook my eyes don't wander to the likes. I care more about what people are saying to each other, than how many. I love the honest questions we're asking and the answers we're are sharing... It is an experience like no other honestly, and it makes me feel more confident, secure, and frankly relevant. Because sometimes in this new world of creators, performers, and social media stars I feel a bit lost sometimes. I am very happy and proud to have been part of the first digital wave and I am so happy that hundreds and thousands of young influencers have found a voice and the ability to follow their dreams just by being themselves, it is absolutely incredible, and I am so very proud to have had some role to play in it. But some days it's hard to keep running. Some days I just want to sit down and not feel the urge to compete or compare. Some days I want to feel as proud of having had 5 meaningful exchanges than getting 10,000 likes. But I don't always know if that's ok, that if I stop running, will the world just pass me by? So maybe I'll jog for a while so things don't zip by so quickly anymore. Maybe I'll jog and you'll jog with me. <3

??

Btw, I think this realization came from accepting my insecurities and some jealousy. (Yes, that was why I was listening to The Pet Shop Boys on repeat yesterday, not all green-eyed monsters are about romance). More than anything I hate feeling envious of my friends. I don't ever want to be that person and I don't think I am but this greed for social (media) currency was starting to make me go "Black Swan" a little. Lol. So enough. I don't need Instagram to hide my hearts away, I need my mind to reprogram what it defines to be loved.

??

#hope #insideout #love #socialmedia #catchingthelight #insidevoice #truth #jealousy #presspause #quarantinelife #beyoubetrueCat