Calmness is human's super power

I can make people smile, no matter how bad their mood is. I love making people laugh and smile. I mean, I love it when someone laughs/smiles and the reason behind it is me. We have our physics paper on Monday. A classmate of mine who was sitting on the bench beside mine was solving some numerical and by her facial expressions she looked quite stressed out. So I said to her ‘tujhe pata hain jo jada padhte hain na voh gadhe ban jate hain’ Do you know, those who study a lot turn into a donkey’ At first she was bit confused but then started laughing on my lame joke. Yeah that joke was lame as it is but it made her smile and I guess that matters the most <3

The other day me and my classmates were having discussion about the food items to be ordered for 12th class farewell party. We were having a hard time deciding a menu when I said ‘Ek kaam krte hain in logo ko na kaju badam denge. Hoshiyar hojayenge’ ‘Let’s do one thing, we will give them almonds and cashew nuts. They will get intelligent’ The whole class cracked hearing this. All of them had a good laugh for a minute or so. I will randomly drop some kind of sweet text to my close ones just to see that beautiful smile on their face. It doesn’t cost me any money. I love making people smile so I will keep doing it. That feeling of satisfaction of other smiling because of me or are happy because me is just something else. Its something that can’t be described by words<3333

So answer to the question? I love spreading smiles and that’s my superpower I guess. I remember that I had a job about 20 years ago somewhere in the middle of this town. A town which took most of my energy, my time and..you! Everything has changed since then. Nothing is same. I can't even find that house where we lived once. A big apartment is now standing in its place. This town doesn't feel like my home anymore. This used to be my second favourite place. First was your lap, it's always been. Most people like a place where they can be at peace. And you were my peace. You remember, here used to be a bar once? Where you met me for the first time? You don't know this yet, but I already knew you. I noticed you in that shopping mall near your house, and then in the park and again I saw you there, at the bar.

There was a force which was pulling me towards you from the very beginning. Telling me to approach you. Telling me that we were meant to be together. I was watching you from one corner of the booth for about 3 hours. You were alone there. Enjoying like there was nothing in the world which could affect you. You were carefree and I liked that. I watched you and trust me when I say, I wasn't bored. I was bewitched by you. Your every movement was like liquid. You were reckless, intoxicated and lovable.

I loved you. You loved me. We got married. Two years of our marriage was heavenly. I was working for a big company at that time. Was earning plenty of money. You owned a bakery shop. Everything was perfect. Perfect with you there. Sometimes, I wonder what would have happened if we didn't go for that date? If by some miracle, you would have convinced me to stay home, and i had listened to you. Already, I wasn't giving you the required time. We were going to have our first child. I wanted to take you for a drive before you conceived.

You were excited about it but refused. It was already half past eleven. But I somehow convinced you. I should not have. You wanted to drive. And I didn't let you. I should have. As I needed sleep more than you needed that drive. I chose an empty road. I shouldn't have. Maybe someone could have saved you after the wreck? Every thing went wrong that day. Each and every. And that drive turned into a disaster. That disaster into misery. A cruel one.

You were wearing a beautiful red bodycon dress with light makeup which was complimenting your look. You had that ocean blue eyes, deep yet light. Anyone could read you, you were that transparent. No secrets or a dark past. You were the woman, any guy would fall for. But I, came to a halt. I tripped. Went insane. And then I fell. Fell for you. Even after I loved you the most, even after you were my life, even after I couldn't live without you. I did something that ruined everything. Every damn thing. I crushed them. All of them! You asked me once, what is my super power? I can do heinous and odious things to the people I love and care the most. I killed you. Yes, I did! Now I love the calmness beyond us engulfing me forever like a darkness of the future. Cheers!