Calmness in chaos?

Today he tried to look back at the footprints he had left in this world to date. What he could immediately conclude was, 'I find calmness in chaos'. The anxiety, the challenge, and the opportunity to be in the spotlight fuels his will to act and maybe even wake up any given day.

Yet, diving a little deeper, he observed a rope being pulled by two opposing thoughts fighting for dominance. And while over time one of them has been slowly and gradually pulling a lot of rope to its side, the end cheering for chaos is still dancing in complete oblivion.

"What is this other end opposing chaos?", he wondered.

As he kept diving, he could hear a child's voice shouting at him.

"You were selfish but smart. Very few could see beyond your actions.", it said.

"Maybe", he acknowledged and stopped where he was.

"Dive deeper! You are trying to be much more today. Don't you want to see what that is?", it asked.

Filled with curiosity, he held the rope tightly and dived a lot deeper. The rope finally reached its end where it was tied around the waist of a small child.

A child who was running after the birds. A child who could forget about time admiring at the fluttering of the leaves. A child who could feel the happiness when he heard an adult laugh out loud. A child who felt calm to know that someone is feeling safe and joyous. A child who wants to see many many more such smiling faces.

A child who loves to run after the rainbow knowing there's no start or end to it and yet chooses to enjoy the journey to its full.

"Will I ever embrace you fully?", he asked the child.

"Well, that is the question of 'when' not 'if'. Since you have reached here, you have already opened your arms to embrace me. And when you will be able to do that, depends on how badly you want me." replied the child.