A Call from Nigel Lewin

I had a call this morning from Nigel Lewin, the 'case manager' of the PA Hospital's "psychosis team". He "implored" me to attend the appointment I had been sent in the mail with an unsigned letter from the PA.

I told him that since Raghavan Raman had refused to inject me 7 weeks ago due to the observable effects of the drug, my physical and mental health had continued to improve. Though I am still drooling and my speech has not returned to normal (I am still slurring some words) they have both improved considerably.

I told him that it is not legal under the Queensland Mental Health Act to place people under 'treatment authorities' (involuntary treatment orders) if they have capacity to make decisions, in which case they can refuse treatment. It is also a violation of the law if the person does not pose an "imminent risk" of harm to themselves or others. Seven weeks ago Raman established that I do not pose a risk. He also said that in his opinion the injections were harming my health.

I said I wanted to speak to Manaan Kar Ray, the director of mental health at the PA but Lewin said "he's not your doctor". Kar Ray did not answer his phone and neither did Anup Joseph when I tried to ring them this morning. The "psychosis team leader" Rebecca Ibbotsen (who I have never met) also refuses to take my calls. They have also failed to respond to my email communications, though the PA boasts that it is a "digital hospital".

I know why Nigel Lewin "implored" me to attend this appointment. He knows that if I fail to do so they will send police around to my house and get me taken back to the PA where given my past experience I will be locked up and injected anyway.

The last time I saw him Anup Joseph accused me of "living in a shell" and said he hoped increasing the dose would make me see and think more clearly. He ordered that I be injected with 100 mg of paliperidone (a dopamine-blocker) which had the effect (as I expected it to) of making me drool and slur my words. It was because of these effects that it was reduced in the past.

Paliperidone is a treatment for schizophrenia, and it is patently obvious that I do not satisfy accepted diagnostic criteria for schizophrenia or any other mental illness. However, according to psychiatric doctrine, refusal to agree that one is mentally ill is termed "lack of insight". Lack of insight is, in a circular argument, regarded as a "classical sign of mental illness".

From the hospital's past record, they will send police around at the end of Friday and I will be told that I have to stay in hospital over the weekend before I see a psychiatrist. Once they lock me up they'll probably keep me there for weeks, given their past record, as well as increase the abusive injections.

In addition, when I have been locked up my possessions have been stolen from my house in 2015, 2016 and 2017, including my guitars and bass, video and still camera, coin collection, USB memory sticks, percussion instruments and drumsticks, brand new Lenovo computer, stamp collection and other valuables. I reported this to the police but they took no action - it was the Moorooka Police that left my house open when they took me away.

I am caught between a rock and a hard place. Just when I was recovering from the trauma and the poisoning.

Any suggestions?

Any suggestions?