Breaking The Silence

Once we finally get the courage to talk, we break the silence, and we reveal the very things that somehow we agreed would never see the light of day. You know, we've held a perverse sense of loyalty to them. Why do we do this when those about us, the ones that care and love for us and want to get to know who we are. Is it shame, guilt, not feeling worthy, feeling unlovable? Or is it purely down to that you'll reject me if I tell who I am? Somehow, the initial person I presented to you is now flawed, not perfect or simply so damaged and incapable of fitting in anywhere. The truth is that when those who genuinely love us reach out with love, compassion and understanding and accept us for who we are. We await suspiciously, yet they remain consistently loving and accepting us for who we are. They see something in us that goes beyond the flaws and love us for being the person we are. Just knowing this is one thing, but believing this comes with time. Again those that love us understand this; they wait patiently and offer a secure place for our healing to unfold. We begin to trust ourselves and those around us, feel safe, and our place in the world has been shaped and finally, we fit in and gain that sense of belonging.