So here we are. Another trip around the sun.
I love a birthday because it brings life into full view how lucky I am that this collection of cells and atoms banded together to make a walking, talking, thinking human (of varying degrees of quality). It brings into view all the things I've survived, thrived, and given a go. It brings into view everything I'd love to open up, the hopes, the dreams, the "yes, let's do it".
I’m a big believer in everyone marking their birthday in some shape or form. Yes - because I like a party, but also because each year that passes is another year of experiences, growth, love, pain, laffs and all the chaos of life. And that should be celebrated.?
Somehow I expect a fanfare each birthday I join, or some divine knowledge will present itself to me, and that finally I do have the answer to what we’re looking for. But it swings around and I’m always surprised to see it, but have always learnt some new tricks, but am extremely happy to be here rather than the alternative so I get on with it and try and have a fabulous time.
In these last 365 days here are some of my observations -?
- I continue to become freer in my thoughts and my words - less fucks given I think they call that
- I’m kinder to others but mostly in the way I speak to myself
- Accepting (sometimes) my body is getting older and that I have to use it / tend to it differently (i.e. - can’t hammer it as much as I did in my 20s)
- We should all cut ourselves some f*cking slack ok?
- My body is uncontrollable
- I’m really going to try my hardest to live to 100 and then get either A. frozen or B. fired into space
- To do something every day for your body, mind and soul
- The world is massive and I want to do as much of it as possible
- I know what balance means now, how what I put in very directly influences what I put out
- My brain and your brain actually does know a lot of interesting, good and useful stuff (and I have the confidence to say that out loud) now
- I still procrastinate but once I’ve made a decision I’ll see it through with dogged persistence
- We are not our mothers 40 or our grandmothers 40,?we are?our own version of our own rule book and?we can do what looks and feels rights to?us and?us alone
- I’ll always overpack
- Starting something new is shit-your-pants scary… but just imagine if?we never did?
- I get further away from some relationships and much deeper into others and try to find a compassionate internal state to navigate that
- Money will come and money will go
- I accept my version of relaxing looks very different to anyone else I’ve ever met (the proverbial ants in my pants)
- Always be Growing
- Things don’t have to be perfect, other people will never know if they’re not (note to self)
- I like reading more and more
- I like gardening more and more
- I like putting bad stuff in less and less
- Boundaries are beautiful and terrifying but necessary
- Love, laughter and learning get me through the brightest and the darkest times… my own live, laugh, love in diamantés if you will?
And I'm so grateful. To all my loves, to this body, to this mind, and to the universe as bonkers and beautiful as it is on the daily. Here's to some more of that please.
