Benefits of Freelance Life

I had never thought of a job, employment or service until I graduated. A little thought developed during the last days of my college life as to what to do next? Should I study further or go for a Govt. or private job? When this question arose within me I came to know that I have grown enough to think about the future plans, aims, life and expectations. I came to know for the first time that life is not what I am thinking of or imagining. It is something different what I have thought of so far. I have been leading my life with the parental support and a day will come soon when I will have to take responsibilities upon my shoulders because my adolescent age came to an end with the completion of my graduation and my parents also started pushing me to think about such thing once. So the first question came to my mind as to which type of life I wish to lead and live? Should I prepare for civil services exams or allied exams or private job or business? Business! no! no! no! as my parents closed this option to me and I had to choose between a Govt. or private job or further study. I decided to go for further study and got admitted in LLB in Himachal Pradesh University, Shimla. I completed my LLB and with this my parents showed me the door finally. Father said, " dear son, now we want to live a burden free life and now take the responsibilities at your own mettle." I agreed. Immediately on the very next day I rushed to Chandigarh where I got a job an MNC for offshore legal work. I spent two years there. At that time, I still was not assure of what do I actually want and what life I should lead and live. My office timing was 8:00 a.m. to uncertain time. There was a fixed office timing but no fixed off timing. Sometimes I got free at 6:00 p.m. sometimes 10:00 p.m. sometimes 12:00 a.m. Then I developed cervical problems and I could not perform for long hours which affected my working capacity. I used to get consistent misbehavior from my boss and company directors. My company and boss wanted to extract the maximum of output out of their employees even if your are about to die. At this stage of my career and life I consistently used to receive a door-knocking message from the internal, " Is it called a life?" " Am I a slave or human being?" The judgment day came finally. I decided not to go further with my job and decided to go back to my native state and place where I was born and brought up. I finally decided to lead a life of contentment. peace and solace. I decided to be a complete human being born to live a dignified natural life with fundamental independence whatever may be the results and consequences. When I took the final decision, I at once got relieved from the stress and mental burden of unwanted things I was contracting with. I was left with few hundred rupees in my pocket not sufficient to hire a vehicle to transport my belongings and luggage to my native town. I had to sell out my five seats sofa and then I managed some money to hire a goods carrier. I somehow reached at home but when my parents came to know of my decisions they got embarrassed but I did not concede. I did not even ask them for any assistance but simply go to my district headquarter and joined my core court practice. I lived there with a student who happened my far flung relative. I left his room after four months and took a old room on rent for Rs. 800 per month. I was not in a position to pay Rs. 800 per month let alone the food and cloth requirements. But I was committed to take on the circumstances. I joined one senior lawyer for few months and left him after some time because he was trying to get over my independence with a lot of instructions as if he is my boss which I could not compromise at any cost. So the hard days went on rolling around me. One day when there was nothing in my pocket to spend on my food necessities I contacted one vegetable seller to retain the residue left out vegetable leaves such as cauliflower, spinach and radish etc. which he agreed to keep with him. I used to go in the evening to pick the vegetable leaves and would come to my room. I would boil the leaves in water with some salt added thereon and sip the whole liquid. Such practice lasted for about 7-8 months. I had have no money even to buy one time rice or flour but I had never minded this thing. But during this struggle, I was pledged to save my natural independence regardless of any problem. I did not want to earn respect or money at the cost of my self independence. I did not want to be a slave or junior or senior or any thing else but simply a human being with a lot of freedom at hand. Finally, a judgment day came when I got first case that too a Bail in a criminal case and I earned Rs. 14000 out of it. Now the good journey of my life was about to start. I found the real meaning of freedom of life during this struggle. I do not run for money or work but try only what is needed to fulfill my basic requirement. I found that the life is not meant for nurturing desires in your mind, it is not meant for earning money, it is not meant for earning respect in the society but it simply means to live it with internal independence. If you do not want to get disturbed, nobody can disturb you, nothing can disturb you, nobody can defeat you. Let the things, people, desires and circumstances go their own way. Do not interfere with them and a time will come when you will see everything is revolving around you without any disturbance to you. I found all the individuals around me are running behind the money, respect, dignity, splendour, relations and desires. The people expect all these thing from the society. Today I am a established lawyer but with limited scope and social area. I accept cases which I can handle. I discard the work which interfere with my independence. During this struggle I found the people around you do not support you because you can not give them anything they expect a man should be with. I enjoy the real freedom of life. I used to get free from my daily court work at about 11:00 am in the morning. I used to wrap my court work within one hour and used to come to my office where I enjoy the work. I can go anywhere at anytime without any fetter fastened into my feet. Nobody is there to ask me, I am my own boss and I am my own servant. That's why I did not join government job in spite of good opportunities. That's why few years ago I rejected an offer from a company agreed to pay me Rs. 70000 for their one of North India office. I am satisfied with Rs. 15000 per month. I do not want more but I used to earn according to me needs. I do not have to earn respect or money from the society. I found the whole society get caught in its cub web itself. No one has dragged it into difficulties. I am leading a life of self reliance and fearlessness. I realized that the most of the problems have been created by the human being themselves. Otherwise one can see that hardly anybody comes to him to disturb. We need a self realistic approach to assess what we are doing and for whom and why? It may appear a kind of philosophical or cynical attitude but we really need a self-controlled psychological approach to handle ourselves for this we need to spend a good amount of time upon ourselves to understand the basics of human nature and secrets of universe. Sometimes one can find it difficult as to where it should be started from. At such time books written by great philosophers may help you clinch the confusion. Such spiritual literature can help you understand the basic elements of life but it is you who has to tread on this path alone. Lastly, once you become decisive of something, you can not get fail. Make it sure the success is yours, time is yours and achievements are yours. Just be decisive! any kind confusion may lead you to wrong path. What I want to convey here in this article is that we are born with freedom enshrining within us. We need to take some good solid steps to search this freedom for which we need to get ourselves free from fetters of dependence on others with a particular aim. I find most of us do not want to lead a life of self-dependence and we lost most of our time in search of private jobs etc. They do not know their worth and spent the whole in slavery of their bosses, companies etc.but do not spend this time on themselves otherwise they would have got success long back. If you can work hard for others, if you can spare 8-10 hours of your life daily to your bosses or your companies there is no reason why you can not deploy the same amount of time and hard work for yourself. I assure you if you can dedicate/spend 8-10 hours daily for your progress, be it spiritual or material, honestly with definite goal, you can never get fail in life. Thanks