Being Present… Step up!

‘I do not know how to write and what to write.’ This is my truth about putting pen to paper.

I never wrote, nor did I develop my ability to write, instead I avoided it, till I felt I didn’t need it. It was enough for me that people saw me as an impactful speaker. I can write the essentials- not a blog an article, or a newsletter. I just don’t think I can do it. I feel I am not good enough.

I want to make a start…why now?

Because I just feel it RIGHT!

This year of COVID has been a year of opportunity for many and also a year of grief and pain for many. For me, a year of LEARNING. Enrolled in courses, webinars, certifications, trainer forums, name it and I am there. This led to too many courses, I was biting more than what I could chew. In the process the most difficult part was BEING PRESENT, which means I was absent, which means I was not in the experience, to feel it.

Why do I say this?

I thought I was BEING PRESENT by being on time, attending, listening, participating, reflecting, and learning, but it was tiring as it was all too much effort. Also, there were other inner obstacles as well which were not allowing me to be present facades, my ego, my vulnerabilities, and my complexes.

So was missing every experience by not being able to be in the Here and Now.

I will explain this better. There are days when I eat lunch and after a couple of hours, I ask myself did I eat? When did I eat? What did I eat? This happens when I am not in the experience, and I do not feel it. I ate food because I had to. That’s what I call not being present.

Taking up a lot on me made me grow distant. I missed the experience of profound learning, which was several deep layers of self-awareness.

It was still not so late. I was able to recover because of 2 reasons my awareness and my belief in PEER COACHING.

I trusted my PEER COACHES with all my vulnerabilities. They made a difference to me because they were listening without any judgments. They let me be ME. They were curious and were objectively observing. They were compassionate. THEY WERE THERE FOR ME to help me self-reflect better, to know myself better, and help me declutter to make the right space.

For me, being present is truly experiencing this moment. It’s about being myself and throwing away all my facades. It’s about embracing my vulnerabilities to let them GO.

It means to wholly be there for myself and to be there for others.

It means decluttering to make some space.

No matter where one is, we all have an opportunity to step up in be present.

I am stepping up each day. Are you?

‘What you feel on the inside will manifest on the outside.’ – IRIS VAN OOYEN