Anxiety Monster – The Poem
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Anxiety Monster – The Poem

Why do you scream obscenities at me

When I long to be free

Clutched by your grip; saddled by your threats

Riffled by your incessant demands and pleas?


Anxiety oh, no


Trying to move a step

But you constantly rob me of my energy, joy, and pep.


Always triggered by the past

Asking how long will your torture last?


Anxiety oh, no


Pouring out my sins at temple, church, or mass

But laced with overwhelming guilt which seems to forever trespass.


Attempting to move as a single dude, husband, or dad

When you rear your ugly head

I become complacent, depressed, and then, paralyzing sad.


Anxiety oh, no


Because living this lie only leads to panic, fear, and dread

And gives me actual physical pains in my body, neck, and head

Thinking depressing thoughts by wishing I was better off dead.


The only relief is crying out for divinity 

In a crowded room of people,

Where I know the Creator really sees

The man I was designed to be, divorced from this monster of anxiety.   


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Thank you for reading.

Your thoughts are very appreciated.

Researcher’s Bio

Karen Bontrager helps 16-24-year-old men, and fellas stuck there due to complex trauma, make permanent shifts in their behavior from merely surviving in life to thriving through transparent coaching/counseling in one-on-one conversations and in group work, and through topic sensitive trauma-informed workshops in a program called, “From Crisis to Courage.” With this ontological approach, I partner with my clients to discover their essence, (aka highest and best self) by powerfully reflecting and listening to them. My clients quickly learn how to generate self-awareness and to voice their own relationship needs in a clear, constructive way by learning key coaching techniques/evidenced based counseling approaches/tools to work past their traumatic events and addictions to move forward. The clients are then equipped to develop healthy relationships with key relationships: parents/siblings/friends, and with intimate dating partners because they have learned how to proactively use their voice.

She does a weekly Relationships Matter Monday LI article for 16-24-year-old men and fellas stuck there due to trauma, is a frequent contributor here, and has a bi-monthly podcast called Crisis to Courage to give gentlemen an honorable platform for learning how to use their voices in a way which gets respected, instead of turning to the old standbys: anger, isolation, and numbing behavior, so they can be the men they were made, formed, and created to be.

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Mike Darling

Helping people by finding overlooked details.

4 年

Anxiety can attack any of us, Karen. Even those who think they are immune. Stack the obstacles and problems high enough and anxiety can creep in. Anxiety is sneaky and can manifest itself in many different ways. It can be very easy to deny that we are dealing with anxiety, especially if we feel that we are a strong and calm person. Denial is not helpful. If you think you might be dealing with anxiety, get input from a trusted friend or mentor. That is why it is so important to have trusted quality people (friends or mentors) we can go to. People that we can vent to, that we can share with, and trust that they will listen and give us good sound input. If someone is dealing with anxiety, or stress, and they do not have a trusted friend or mentor they can go to, they should make it a priority to develop that kind of a relationship or see a professional counselor. The long-term negative effects of anxiety or stress, can ruin relationships, careers and negatively affect our entire lives. Eventually, it can overwhelm us. Thank you for asking me to weigh in. Enjoy your weekend! ??

Roshan Senapati

MBA HRM 2024-26 || XIMB || Ex-Infosys || VSSUT '19'

4 年

thanks for sharing a wonderful poem with us Karen Bontrager

Junior Schoeman

Simplifying Talent Processes, Championing Mental Wellbeing, Navigating Talent Complexity Risks

4 年

Karen Bontrager the anxiety monster is so real as is the confusion experienced around anxiety and the way in which people can understand it and pin it down to narrow areas that is causing the anxiety. It is only after we start pushing it into corners can we see what the monster look like, and although many may get a fair look at it, they still cannot completely describe it or give it a face that they can properly recognise it The question is usually how many sources of impact is there on the anxiety and who is doing what especially the individual that is causing that anxiety. There has to be tools to get out of it, and sadly talking is not the tool or should be the tool of preferences as we still referring to what may who experiences this will be vague as they cannot wrap a complexity context around the anxiety to place themselves in the middle thereof. The talking only help when they have Understanding and able to develop an insight to the anxiety able to understand what are their intrinsic tools to leverage to get out of it, as the medication is just a placebo suppressant and does not take it away and without combination with positive actions that the individual belief in they will just deteriorate David Christopher

Karen Bontrager

Founder Crisis to Courage for Men I Podcast | 16-24 | ★ Money & Thought Leader | TBRI Trauma Clinician | LMHCA Therapist | ACC Trauma Coach | No Fear in Love Race President | Coaching | Scholar | Fierce Men’s Advocate

4 年

Anxiety Monster – The Poem Why do you scream obscenities at me When I long to be free Clutched by your grip; saddled by your threats Riffled by your incessant demands and pleas??

Karen Bontrager

Founder Crisis to Courage for Men I Podcast | 16-24 | ★ Money & Thought Leader | TBRI Trauma Clinician | LMHCA Therapist | ACC Trauma Coach | No Fear in Love Race President | Coaching | Scholar | Fierce Men’s Advocate

4 年

Male LI leaders, please weigh in: During this time of great unpredictability, the "Anxiety Monster" is deathly real for many men, as they are turning to anger, isolation, (even suicide) and various numbing behaviors, which makes some passive, while others use their masculine energy for predatory behavior. ??? 1) What spoke to you? 2) How did you combat the anxiety you were experiencing? 3) In what ways, can we support 16-24-year-old guys to beat this monster? 4) Are we losing the fight, and why? 5) What should fellas/others do to defeat the Anxiety Monster, right now during COVID, and with all the other recent unpredictable events? Bill Dolan, Jonaed Iqbal, Ron Hamlin, Joseph DiRoma, NCC, Jack Beavers (US Marine Corps and US Army Veteran), Jordan J Mendoza, Gene Girdley, Junior Schoeman, Craig, Mike Darling, Ron Malhotra, Roshan Senapati, DAVID Thompson, Danny A Shannon, KISHORE SHINTRE KS, Simon Buckden, Lucas Velmer, Adrian Petrie, Thomas Summerford, Farmer Wayne Thomas (Adams), Kevin Baker, Kevin J. Cox, Will Edward B., William James, Dr. Marc Baxter, Elvis Galesi, Chinmay Kaitade, Edward Joshua, Alan Maitland, Nick Reynolds, Raymond Victorino, Mahendra Solanki, Daniel Low, Jackson Gudinho [Y.O.L.O], Mr Mahendru

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