'Am I good enough?'- Resolving Self-Esteem issues with Jaina Psychology

The quest for self-esteem is an innate longing shared by all human beings. At the very core of anxiety and depressive disorders lies the belief that "I am not good enough." In this article, we shall explore how the applied psychology of Jainism liberates us from the relentless pursuit of external validation to fulfill this fundamental need and the void it creates within us.

Every human being enters this world with an inherent desire to feel valued and worthy. From the mightiest Indra (Celestial Being) to the most ordinary individual, each seeks to bask in their own sense of worthiness. Modern psychology often takes this yearning for granted, advising individuals to pursue it through rational and sensible means. However, Jainism challenges the very existence of this need.

Where does this need for self-esteem originate? According to Jainism, it arises from the attachment to limited names and forms. The soul, known as 'jeeva,' projects its intrinsic nature of boundless self-worth onto these finite aspects and becomes outwardly focused in its quest to feel good. In its true essence, the jeeva is formless and possesses limitless esteem, independent of skill, accomplishment, or fame. Yet, the jeeva forgets its true nature due to the obscuring influence of "Darshan Mohaniya Karma." It mistakenly identifies with the name and form of the mind-body complex and attributes its inherent boundless worth to these limited aspects, thus endlessly seeking validation from the finite.

The perpetual quest for more success, additional wealth, or increased fame stems from a fundamental aspect of our nature: our intrinsic worth is boundless and cannot be fully satisfied by limited, conditional achievements. The insatiable desire for more is rooted in projecting our infinite esteem onto the restricted framework of our name, form, mind, and body. Consequently, the search for validation outside of ourselves becomes limitless and never-ending.

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It's important to acknowledge that wanting to feel esteemed is entirely natural. However, the issue lies in the direction of this pursuit. Instead of recognizing and appreciating our inherent, boundless worth, we often mistakenly channel our efforts into seeking validation through external achievements. This misdirection perpetuates a cycle of endless searching, as the limited nature of external accomplishments can never fully satiate the infinite esteem that resides within us.

Ask yourself, what makes you feel good about yourself? Is it your appearance, educational qualifications, intelligence, wealth, job title, or social connections? These external sources of esteem are closely tied to the mind and body, making them susceptible to fluctuations. They are transient, subject to situational variations, and at the mercy of destiny. This association renders our self-esteem fragile and vulnerable, easily shaken by a job demotion or a social snub.

Jainism offers a path to anchor ourselves in an unshakable source of self-esteem—our true essence, the "Atman." When the jeeva experientially recognizes that it is neither the body nor the mind, it liberates itself from the limited identity linked to names and forms. Instead, it experiences its unconditional self-worth as the realized "siddha" itself.

Yes, you heard it right—you are no less than a siddha! In your true essence, you are an unconditionally complete and infinitely esteemed soul. Nothing can be added to or taken away from your worth. This profound self-awareness acts as an anchor, providing you with unwavering self-esteem. Self-esteem, in this sense, is paradoxical because the experience of self is, in itself, an experience of infinite self-worth.

Look at the wristwatch or a bangle (bracelet) that you have worn. Which sounds more correct,? "I am that wrist watch" or "I have worn a wristwatch?" The latter, "I have a wrist watch," sounds more correct, right?? While the wristwatch may age or better smart wrist watches may emerge in the market, "I am" remains a constant.

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Consider the distinction between the belief "I am young and beautiful" and the perspective "I have a young and beautiful body." When we acknowledge our ability to observe the body, akin to how we observe a wristwatch, it becomes evident that we are not synonymous with the body; rather, we possess it. This realization emphasizes the separation between our true self and the physical form we inhabit. The body may undergo changes, but "I am" remains a constant. When we shift our perspective to "I have the body,” from “I am the body”, we free ourselves from the confinement of identifying exclusively with the body. This change in perspective allows us to recognize that the body is something we possess rather than something that defines our entire identity

Let's take a moment to reflect on the sources from which we often seek our self-esteem. We might find ourselves feeling good and worthy because of our youth or looks, which is rooted in the underlying belief that "I am my body."

Alternatively, it could be our intelligence that gives us a sense of worth, based on the underlying belief that "I am my mind." Others may derive their self-esteem from exceptional job performance or skills, equating their psychological competence with their identity, believing "I am the competent mind with valuable skills." Alternatively, some could pursue self-esteem through material possessions like money and a car, built upon the notion that "This is mine."’

The challenge with deriving self-esteem from psychological traits, such as intelligence or specific skills, lies in their inherent relativity to societal norms. For instance, skills that are considered valuable today might become outdated over time. Additionally, intelligence or proficiency in a particular area is always subject to comparison – there will invariably be someone deemed more intelligent or skilled. Relying on such variables for self-esteem poses a precarious situation. Since these standards are relative and subject to change, basing one's self-worth on them can lead to a fragile sense of esteem. When external benchmarks fluctuate, it becomes challenging to maintain a stable and positive self-perception.

However, when we reframe our perspective through self realization, we realize that we do not need to tie our self-worth to these variable and relative factors. Instead, we can shift to a more liberating view:

1. "I have a mind and body. I am not the mind and body."
2. "I have money and a car, but they belong to this body for a finite time. Once this body ceases to exist, they no longer belong to me."
3. "My self esteem is not defined and limited to these possessions."

In essence, I am the formless principle that transcends the limitations of my mind and body, which were born and will ultimately pass away. This realization liberates us from the ever-changing and impermanent aspects of our existence, leading us to a deeper understanding of our true, timeless nature.

Dive deep into the inquiry of what "I am" truly means. "I am this" or "I am that" is a false identification, tethering "I am" to external circumstances for its worth. In its genuine sense, "I am" is eternally whole and complete. The realization of this truth liberates us from seeking morsels of validation within the cycle of samsara.

Imagine a person tasked with delivering a presentation in front of a crowd. Despite diligent practice and possessing all the necessary skills, this individual still feels a sense of anxiety. Where does this anxiety originate?

The anxiety in this scenario is rooted in the fear of losing self-esteem in the eyes of the audience if the presentation doesn't go perfectly. It also arises from the desire to gain more self-esteem by delivering an exceptional performance. This person's self-worth is tied to external validation, which hinges on their ability to perform exceptionally well.

Now, let's envision an alternate scenario where this person has attained "Samyak Dristhti," a state of self-realization in Jainism, recognizing their true self as the formless "Atman." In this state of enlightenment, they understand that their core identity is unchanging and indestructible. They realize that nothing can be added to or taken away from their true essence.

As a result of this profound realization, their self-esteem is no longer fragile and contingent on performing well or poorly. They find themselves anchored to an unshakable source of self-esteem. This newfound awareness brings immense relief.

In this state of enlightenment, this individual can deliver the presentation with a sense of joy, free from the constant worry of losing or gaining self-esteem. The act of presenting becomes a process they can genuinely enjoy, and they are no longer burdened by the fear of judgment or the need for external validation.

This shift in perspective allows them to approach the presentation with a sense of inner peace, fully aware that their self-worth is not dependent on the opinions of others. Their focus shifts from seeking esteem from external sources to realizing that they are already complete and esteemed in their true nature, the formless atman. This realization empowers them to embrace the task with confidence and serenity.

It's like beggars seeking alms from other beggars. Humanity, in its entirety, roams with a void of self-esteem, searching for validation from others who are equally lacking in self-esteem, fundamentally due to their ignorance about their true selves.Indeed, we are blessed to have encountered the path of the Jina, which liberates us from the relentless pursuit of self-worth through the transient offerings of the world. This path guides us towards the realization of the ever-existing, unconditional source of self-esteem that resides within the very essence of our being—the formless, enlightened nature of the "siddha swaroop atma." It offers us a profound understanding of our true, unchanging, and esteemed self, freeing us from the limitations and anxieties associated with external validation. In this wisdom, we find the ultimate source of peace and self-assurance.

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