Almost famous or smth…

I don’t know if anyone has the time to remember past events, something like: Do you remember when...? We haven’t even enjoyed the childhood events of our classic literature, I don’t think we could’ve identified with them when they were compulsory reading. I know I am not speaking for myself, but as a representative of a generation. Somehow we have always felt that we are a generation of in-betweens, with the soul in the future while the body struggles to catch up. But when I get an introspection (like now), I feel like every day is a winding road: I look back and remember when I planned the first party. I remember the mistakes, the improvised attempts to look professional. Then I look in the opposite direction and there it’s the open road, waiting. I'm sure I'll get there and still want more.

I am thinking that I built everything carefully, there is no fragile balance – everything was set in the right order. Now is the moment I know for sure I will remember my whole life, the moment when you feel that life has changed and will never be the same again. It's kind of painful and you feel like comforting the na?ve man you were, give him a hug and tell him you knew he was going to be fine. On the other hand, you're glad you've been through some life trials. They've been holding you down for a while, but they did not break you. And you are glad they were part of the man you became and somehow grateful. Your feelings are also 'between', it's like when you expect the change and still catches you unprepared.

I never asked myself if all that was worth the trouble of becoming somehow famous, though it may be a strong word. The thing that I am certain of is: this is the moment I am going to remember for the rest of my life. And recalling it would be like: Do you remember when we were the first brand of parties to open season at the Black Sea? Litterally, we got there before Labor Day!