"All of Me" -Big Gigantic feat. Logic & ROZES

I remember waking up in the ICU. The first thing I did was flex my feet. They worked. I was relieved. The second thing I did was look down at my stomach. I was in shock. I went into surgery being told that I would wake up with an incision that ran along my mid-sagittal plane from my belly button down, instead it ran perpendicular. I was confused but happy. The third thing I did was look around only to see my heart rate monitor reading 100. I thought it was the funniest thing. Keep it one hundred I thought to myself. Soon enough, my mom and twin brother came in. Mom asked me how I felt, and I said “better already.” Maybe it was just the drugs, but the agonizing sharp pain that had been shooting around my left pelvis, down the back of my thigh, down the side of my shin, to the top of my foot and between my toes for two years had dulled significantly already. It still ached, but it was different. It was a good different. I could have sworn I saw tears in my moms eyes, but I doubt she will ever admit it. 

This song takes me back to the perfect six months that followed my surgery. Everything about my recovery was humbling and perfectly planned by God. I wouldn’t have my life any other way. Read more about my recovery from spinal fusion and what made it so special in my full blog post, "All of Me."