All the Answers Aren’t ‘Out There’

I spent most of my adult life desperately trying to figure out money.?I?had to.?My husband was gambling it away at a rapid pace.?So?I dutifully went to classes, read books, talked to advisors. Nothing helped.

Then, something miraculous happened.?When?I began journaling about my?frustration,?I?began to?breakthrough my blocks.

As I’d write,?I’d hear?a familiar voice in my head telling me how stupid I was. ?Up until then,?I just assumed that voice was right and there was nothing I could do.

But, this time,?instead of letting that voice hold sway, as I always?did, I decided to get to know it better. I asked the voice where it came from and what it wanted.

Memories from when I was younger?began bubbling up. Whenever I asked?my parents?about money, my father,?a financial whiz,?just said,?“Don’t worry,”?and my?clueless?mother would reply:?“I don’t?know. Ask your father.”

Naturally, I concluded that managing money was a man’s job and I, a girl, would botch things up badly if I tried to take charge.

As my?beloved?Course in Miracles?pointed out:?“If we seek something we’re afraid of, attainment of it won’t be what you really want,”

Suddenly my difficulties made sense.?Deep down I didn’t?really?want to deal with money. My fear of loss was stronger than my desire to learn.

Once I realized the source of my struggles, my resistance abated. I became excited about learning?and??life changed dramatically.

I have come to understand, so clearly, that when personal insight is coupled with financial?knowledge, a powerful alchemy occurs.?Unproductive habits give way to enlightened choices

I’d love to hear what unproductive habits are keeping you from making enlightened choices?