ADDICTION

I would have spent hours, weeks, months, years sharing the truth with you, yet,

you continue to live in an intoxicating lie;

a lie created out of habitual repetition easily established as a means of escape you no longer seek an exit from;

having the knowledge to understand the chaos you’ve created wouldn’t even assist you to recover from your rapid self-destruction and...

as you fault others for your demise there is no clarity to recognizing the loss felt by those who have watched you unravel into a state of complete intoxication.

You’ve created a life in which you are no longer living but rather are being led, a slave to an addiction, a slave to continual self-destruction...

I held my hands out to you in love, in complete desperation, time and time again, seeking to pull you out of your fiery hell - with light, gentleness, hope for who I know you to be in your sweet sobriety...

but I am only human, and my capabilities are no match for the inferno residing in your mind and in your precious soul.

I miss you, you and all of your internal truth, I call out to your beautiful soul in my prayers as it drowns in poison…extinguishing your light...

and as I write this, with love, in loss, I only pray God hears my plea to release you...

I failed myself when I have failed you.

I have failed myself as I have failed you. ?

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Written by

Michele Saldana

(July 2020: for who I knew to be my best friend...and, to all others in the World who have succumbed to #Addiction ---> I shall always have Hope) ?

#Addiction #Awareness #JustKNOW