ACCEPTANCE OF MISTAKES OR PREDATION OF REGRET!
Life is great only when there is no guilt in it; guilt is like a poison that kills you from within. It might also be seen as a regret for not putting in any effort or doing anything to improve things. There are times in life when you really want something to happen but aren't sure if it will wind up as a guilty pleasure or a really nice life or whether it would place you in a situation where you feel completely lost. Sorry for making you feel as if my words are eating your head, but as you might know, let me begin with a fantastic story to make the title relevant.
As humans, we all make mistakes in life; as a result, we lose trust in those around us; what is the assurance that you will not make the same mistake again? Let us try to convey this with an example. So I was around 8 years old and in the second grade at school when a magic show was planned and a lot of magical items were for sale on the school campus. I was astounded by a pen that was used to write on the board and whose writing was only visible in the light provided by the pen's cap. I recall the person at Stall saying that they were only open for two days and that one of them had already passed, so individuals who wanted to buy anything would have time until tomorrow. They also stated that they bought limited stock, so first come, first served. I didn't want to hear anything and I needed that pen at all costs; it was as if the pen was more important than my life. Of course, you and I are both laughing at this and thinking what type of mad this person is, but kids are the same, my buddy.
To be more specific about this incident, I tried to convince my mother that I needed the pen and that she should give me 15 rupees so that I could buy it. My mother refused me for an unknown reason, and despite several pleas, she ignored my concern. I had done convincing; now it was time to cry "Bhramastra." It flashed to me that the previous time I sobbed, I received a slap and my mission was accomplished, but this time I am not prepared to be beaten. There was also a pooja that weekend, and papa purchased special 5rs coins with Mataji on the head side. The coins were precisely 108, and I had no idea that taking three of them would be a major mistake.
I bought the pen with three coins and was in full flex mode at school. I returned home, didn't tell anyone, put the pen in my cupboard, and was too happy on the inside. Fast forward to the weekend, and shortly after pooja, my mother began making Prashad Padiya by placing a one-one coin in each. In the end, three coins went missing, and Mom assumed they were misplaced or lost. Mom questioned if I had taken or seen it, to which I said, "NO MUMMA," and things ended fine, despite the fact that three coins were not a huge issue.?
When my mother was looking through my cupboard after the pooja, she discovered the pen and confronted me about where I got it, yelling at me. I burst out weeping and replied quietly, "I stole the three coins." She slapped me and walked away, telling me I couldn't eat dinner that night, and I realized what a terrible mistake I had made. My mother yelled, "Chori kari, upar se Jhuth bola!" and I tried to explain to her that it was not my intention; please forgive me. She didn't listen to me at all, and I felt like I'd lost all of my innocence, and my image in my mother's heart was shattered. She stopped talking to me, never ask me to go and buy anything, not letting me touch her purse. I was deeply feeling a lack of love and trust.
I understood that it was okay that I made mistakes, and I'm going to settle it out by any means necessary, without being emotionally or manipulative. I gave it time and began behaving responsibly; I sold the pen for ten rupees and returned it to mum, but she was not satisfied. Furthermore, I saved money by not eating at the canteen on Saturday, which was a day when mom used to let me eat at the canteen. So, in short, I had returned more than I had taken, but I couldn't figure out how to reinstall my innocence, trust, and love. I gave it time and behaved like a nice kid, and mum understood that yes, I had enough regret for the wrong I committed, and now I deserved her love back. Simply put, everything began to return to normal and pleasant after that day. Yes, this was the end of the story and the final paragraph stating my ultimate concerns that I feel people of today need to understand.
Everyone makes mistakes; it is not a new or unusual occurrence; but, how you respond or handle the circumstance after being found guilty of anything is essential. Whether you start seeking for solutions or stick to a thing that your intentions were not wrong, determines whether the thing is good or terrible. In my life, I have a basic foundation of being okay; I don't think I need to be constantly happy, but I do need to be pleased and free of any kind of regret or guilt. And when things don't go as intended in my life, I feel the need to move on. And, certainly, it wasn't easy, but it got me back to normal.?
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