600 Days Sober -celebrate with me today :)

I DON’T GIVE TWO HOOTS. I’M BLOWING MY OWN TRUMPET AND PROCLAIMING MY AMAZINGNESS WITH A SHIT TONNE OF GRACE AND GRATITUDE

600 days ago, I made a choice which no doubt saved my life 562 days ago.

What on Earth you jibbering on about you may ask?

600 days ago I decided to get clean for real, no odd glass of wine here or there. No cheeky tipple… I decided to play full out and meet the demands of my deteriorating health head on…

The liver disease

The depression

The anxiety

The heart tremors

The nose bleeds

The hypertension

Enough was enough.

The 3 decades of heavy and I mean heavy drinking had to stop. Followed by the odd ripple here or there after a stint of trying to go sober.

The self sabotage to numb out the traumas of teenage years, attachment issues, resulting in perilous toxic relationships with men, putting me in even more dangerous scenarios, not just physically, moreover mentally.

Cuts and bruises heal, deep mental scars don’t heal quite so easily…and I even openly said I drank to help my sleeping habits - what bullshit right!

I didn’t know how to live and love with the only person who could really understand me. And that was me.

So I sought solace and comfort from the bottom of a glass bottle.

Yes all the shit that has happened in my life sucked and is quite possibly an off shoot of lack. Stemming from childhood.

Lack of love and belonging, lack of self control, lack of self worth, lack of belief and so much more the list is endless. ( side note I was loved by my family I was just torn apart emotionally though - you can read more about this in my memoirs- sweet child why are you still running - out soon )

And I know I’m not alone in these areas, it’s evident by what my clients tell me.

Finding my inner child by doing the shadow work which was needed to encourage, support, forgive and show her the love the freedom and the reconnection which she craved allows us to be the Bestest of friends and we have an understanding…

What would 8 / 14 / 17 year old Christine do (notice she’s called Christine and not Chrissie, I’m honouring her name, as Chrissie was an escape route. And like wise we ask what would Chrissie do now She’s no longer crazy Chrissie but beautifully bonkers Chrissie…. And we decide and embrace the decision together out of mutual respect for one another.

Which leads me into the decision which was made 600 days ago.

If I hadn’t have had this conversation with self and analysed my health in such a way, I categorically can say after my recent Covid illness and hospitalisation, I would not have been coming out of the hospital breathing that’s for sure.

Even the nurses agreed and said if I hadn’t have stopped drinking, my immune system would have been compromised more so, and my heart would have given up under the pressure and strain.

It was no surprise that I was taken to the hospital which dealt with cardiac problems over the Covid ward in a different hospital first as they had to rule out cardiac issues first.

Sounds far fetched really doesn’t it… but that’s the reality…

I had to stop running away from things that scared me and my health scared me, not going to lie it still does sometimes. Which is why I honour my mind body and soul, hence this being a huge part of my program.

I had to stop running into unhealthy relationships and find my own peace, love and self worth, find my own direction rather than be reliant on others and people pleasing, in order for me to be given the opportunity to find a deep soul connection and not just settle for any old relationship.

I had to stop running and hiding my shame and vulnerability as these are actually % my strengths and they need to be shared in order to be that blue print for others to follow to break free also along with them understanding they are not alone.

I’m so bloody proud of my battles and journey as should you yourself be, as we all have a story in us.

So this is the big reality check for all of us …

562 days ago, I would never have guessed that my health would be compromised in such a way which meant life or death (and not through excessive alcohol intake or severe mental health problems which in truth I thought would be the thing that took me out) but from a a global pandemic

So let me pose this question to you

Whatever unhealthy habit it is you are doing, be it alcohol, drugs, food even gambling… how do you know what’s round the corner for you?

You don’t.

That’s just it, but yet you know if you carry on with the problem the probability of it not boding well are higher.

So if you where to make that conscious decision, of giving your future self and you’re inner child the chance of change and potentially life, why would you not do it?

You owe it to yourself.

Trust me when I say this, we only get one shot.

Eleanor Roosevelt’s quote says “the purpose of life is to live it”

So make that tour goal. 562 days from now make sure you can say that you chose your life you don’t just settle for it. And make it your goal again 562 days later .. I know for sure that’s what I’ll be doing….

Creating and designing my life of freedom.

So start by honouring the process, realise that changes are ahead and you CAN succeed.

You need support? Find it, there are people out there who can help and it’s their life purpose to help you just as it is my mission and purpose too.

Reach out, DM me even if it’s just a quick chat that’s needed to put you on the right track.

The hardest part is making that first step. Just remember though what potentially could be waiting for you 562 days ahead. You just don’t know x

Love you awesome peeps and id just like to thank all the people I surrounded myself with who believed in me and encouraged me even on the darkest of days, I'm truly blessed and grateful to have you all in my pixie/elf/hippie tree hugging world.

Now go out and rip up the weekend without the toxins and be even more awesome than you already are x