The $500 wholistic investment

It was gone. Everything. Surviving the aftermath of fire and ice was not my game plan for my future, nor was starting over from nothing .... Again.

Or was it?

The life lessons I've endured have steadily tested me. I wondered if it was karma, past life IOU, or even ancestral debt. Regardless I had a feeling deep within my soul that I had to heal this chaos. I devoted my learning towards betterment and evolution and kindness to all living things. I overheard a conversation between someone who I knew and a media interviewer.....

"Angel's compass points due North." I wanted to correct them, I'm no Saint. But then, if that is what they believed, perhaps I should't discredit their words to prove to them differently.

I believed in my heart I was a normal teen, as I grew up I had taken risks, had some adventures, did some really stupid things, regretted some choices, but I also had a very empathic heart. We have certainly heard the cliche, "The road to hell was paved in good intentions." As an adult, I did what was resonating inside my core, to treat people the way I wanted to be treated in return. I never intentionally set out to hurt anyone and if I did so, even inadvertently, I apologize and meant it.

For 30 years I never once reflected upon the good that I gifted. I didn't expect anything in return for helping others. I did my best to speak my truth even if the truth hurt. I sometimes went above and beyond putting others needs before my own and at times had to give tough love. I gave selflessly to my community as a volunteer, I opened my home to foreign exchange students & was a confidant to so many first response crews or service members.

My epiphany came the morning after my house fire. I walked through the edges of rubble past this big pine tree, and this card fluttered over my foot. On the front of this card there was a wee forest fairy & 3 glittery sylphs. Despite being forlorn, I picked it up and read, "May your day be sprinkled with fairy magic." Up until that moment, I felt my life was erased as all of my tangible proof of my existence, accomplishments and accolades was now ash. I was given a message, my heart opened up to the universe and a peace came over me. It would be ok. I was here for a reason or I would have perished that night.

That same day a friend set up a GoFundMe account unbeknownst to me. When the word got out, donations came in from all over the world of people whose lives I had touched in some way. This was their opportunity to pay-it-forward. I was so deeply moved to tears. For the first time ever I realized that I am a decent person after all, despite how I felt unworthy to receive.

That first $500 dollars I dedicated to basics, like a toothbrush & charcoal paste, hairbrush & natural shampoo, coconut oil, goatsmilk soap, and I then I did what the average person would not consider. I purchased specific Essential oils, Bach flower remedies, herbs, teas, homeopathic vitamins, crystals, a tarot deck and one book, Science of the Mind.

This wasn't the first time I have been stripped of all assets but it was the first recovering from a house fire, I was vulnerable, I knew I could be compromised physically, mentally & spiritually. I was being proactive to what may come. Over several years I made it my mission to take care of the WHOLE being when it came to traumatic events and I knew what I needed to move forward and thrive.

"When the student is ready the teacher will come". I said earlier, I didn't feel worthy to receive but a friend sat me down and said, " You have always been the strong one and have always given to other's. Life is a balance of ebb & flow and in giving you must also be able to receive. It's your turn to receive."

This event taught me more than humility, it showed me the importance of the Laws of the Universe. It also proved to me that my purpose here on Earth has not been fulfilled and to take my faith and knowledge out to the world and offer help to those who are trauma survivors and also desire to move forward and create a new life.

I do empathize with so many who are feeling down trodden. I need to express to all that there is a light in the darkness hours and there is a friend who will meet you to guide you out.

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