2023 in a rare-view mirror

The year 2023 almost comes to an end. One long revolution around the mighty Sun. Since few days I’m with long thoughts about how this year really has been. I see some have achieved progress, some have struggled, and for some the year went so fast like a day. For me it was different. There were ups and downs throughout the year. To honest more downs than ups :). Be it on professional side or on private, 2023 was not so kind to me. Initially I was in confusion, if I should post this or just let these thoughts sink in me. With some skepticism, I finally decided to pen it down. My belief is, Social media is not just about sharing only good things. It is also about sharing lessons learnt. Perhaps it may help someone and not suffer like I did.?

Started year 2023 with nice gathering with friends, in a nice cozy setup with cool breeze and fire works in sky but over period of time of the year, it looked more like life is caught in hurricane and fire ??. There was constant struggle and pain. Sometimes it pushed me to the edge and tested my core values and strength. I was forced to sacrifice many things. It may not be wrong if I say, I was at one point rock bottom in my life. And it was the first time I experienced this. Believe me, I would not imagine it in my life again. Everything was going hay fire, was always waking up to the fear what might happen? how would this day go?. But one day, I met one of my dearest friend in September, we just talked after some months. At one point he told me, “he don’t recognize me anymore.” I asked him, “why do you say that? Am I changed?”. For the he said, “even your shadow don't follow you.” Which means I had gone down some much, that I was not the same person who he saw before. Until this time, I was not even aware what was happening with me and how bad state I was in. But this statement made me think about myself from third person POV. What really has changed me? Why I’m in this situation? Why there is so much head winds and everything looks so difficult? After this, I started to let somethings go. These things are precious, these things are important but I still let them loose. Not because I don’t care about them. But because they were negatively affecting the core of being Sangamesh. Once I realized how free I was after doing this, I started to feel better. I’m not exaggerating here but it was the such good feeling. I felt peace for the first time in this year. Why I’m saying this? For many months, I was in the denial that there is pain. I knew, I should take a serious step to overcome it or fix it. But I couldn’t. You know, sometimes the most loved thing in your life is the most vicious, if it doesn’t resonate with your frequency? That’s exactly what I am talking. I was not able to take the correct step because I was not clear. My mind was not clear. It was stuck in never ending loop of thoughts. I must say, somehow I’m lucky to have some very good people in my life, who came to rescue me, pulled me out of the loop and gave me better perspective. I am always in debt to them.

I would really like to name but for my one reasons I will not call names. These people are like angels who were always with me in my darkest times. Cheered for me, motivated me and highlighted good things. This kept me walking on the correct path.?

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What I wanted to say is, life will push you to your boundaries and test you to extreme. Do not expect life will treat you fair, because you treat everyone fair and just. It may not be because of you or your mistakes but you are victim and have to suffer through. When you are suffering do not change who you are? Try to speak to someone who you trust. There could be a way to overcome the situation you are in, it’s just not visible to you because you are clouded with wrong thoughts. Your dear ones may help you. And also this could be a phase in your life, it will pass by.??Don’t loose who you actually are. Don’t let your shadow unfollow you. :)

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After all this, I’m at peace and more positive. I feel confident about myself, if I can overcome this worst phase of life then I can overcome anything and fight. Nothing can be worse than what happened in this year. I leave this 2023 in the rare-view mirror and continue my journey. Also thank you 2023 for teaching a very important lesson in my life and making me a better version of myself. Some wise words which I learnt, "some thing that doesn't kill you, makes you strong.!". I am sure there are many challenges and opportunities in 2024. For which I’m ready to face them and experience them with smile. ?? I am looking forward to the new year.!

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Wishing you all a happy, healthy, prosperous and bold 2024.!?

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