2022 in feelings and learnings

Questioning everything about what convince people during the fellowship on persuasive communications with New Economy Organisers Network (NEON) and Anat Shenker-Osorio

Living alone for 3 weeks in New York and exploring loneliness and uprooting, the fear and excitement of not being expected by anyone in an unknown city

Experience the difficulty of building community in rapid response projects but also the power of solidarity by creating Quartier Général collective for the French parliament election with my co-conspirator Noé G.

Support my mother through grief, accept death coming in our lives in its raw reality

Campaigning for Kevin Vacher in whom I believe so much, listening to him carry our lives and our voices in all authenticity, feeling hope in my guts

Meeting my niece and feeling so strongly this visceral attachment to a child

Feeling pressured and afraid before the presidential elections and the Cornelian choice to openly call to vote for a candidate (who ultimately have not kept his feminist promise)

Facing the great emptiness and depression that sometimes takes us in spite of ourselves, questioning everything and trying to give meaning to life

Train the first volunteers of Lumir Lapray 's parliament election campaign and thinking while listening to their story "that is why I want to invest into politics"

Trying to be the best mother-in-law of little girls whose future as women concerns me so much while embracing my need for independence and autonomy

Record the episodes of my podcast “Le Coeur et le Poing” and after each interview, leave the room surrounded by the love people have for each other despite the sacrifices made to the cause

Knowing that I can count on the friendship of my friend Myriam Nouicer in the hardest times, but also the funniest

Question the way I show up in collectives and how collectives function, between domination and fear, fragility and monopolization

Finding my soul mate and knowing that anything can be said and felt with Ma?mouna Diop

Finding my space, being free electron craving to be part of a group

Being overflown by love for people in the workshop I lead to help people make sense of their personal and collective history that lead them to activism

Confirming that there are no savior or heroes but the ability of each of us to inspire others to be themselves, while meeting fellow Obama Leaders and Barack Obama in Copenhagen

Be honored by the trust of people who told me about hardship they overcame in the FR2030 collective but also in Rokhaya Diallo 's WORD workshops

Being overwhelmed by my own tears during the demonstrations of support for Ukraine when seeing a woman and her daughter sing the national anthem

Feel our power during a conference on reproductive rights in New York and during the vote of the law on the constitutionalization of abortion in the French National assembly with Sarah DUROCHER

The joy of seeing eyes light up when speaking about our ability to all become activists

Have faith in the future when I saw dozens of activists for climate, justice and equality line up on stage during the March for the Future in Paris in June

Feeling free to dance as if no one was watching me in the evening with Hervé Marro , Ma?mouna Diop and Nadim Bellallahom ???

Meeting absolute perfection and evidence in the writing of bell hooks and Annie Ernaux

Being proud to be hired to launch and lead Multitudes Foundation and feeling the anxiety of entering this new world I do not belong to

Feeling pride and love listening to Priscillia Ludosky 's speech at the Académie Des Futurs Leaders award ceremony

Experience the feeling of solidarity and being anchored during a weekend with members of a climate collective

Being happy and exhausted in advance signing the contract for my next book with HORS D'ATTEINTE - feeling lucky to be given space to express myself

Crying while attending the musical & Juliet (good pop music always gives me chills)

Participating in a political meeting and feeling at the same time so connected and so far from its militants

Karaoke at Clara Luciani's concert and sing along with girls next to me that I didn't know

Learn more and more about the weight of social determinism with Taoufik Vallipuram , a mine of ideas and references, a brilliant guy who lives his commitment to abundance and sharing

Find my pen and feel the joy of writing my story and fiction without trying to respond to a request

Progress in my therapy thanks to the best shrink there is, who recognizes my experience in the system that preexists me, patriarchal, violent and racist

Being grateful for abortion movement activists MLAC watching the movie Annie Colère

Engage in a real reflection on the importance of grief and reparation to create healthy collectives with Leila Hoballah and Sophy Banks

Realize how lucky I am to share for 4 years the life of an exceptional person, who lets me be without being indifferent