2019 - The year that changed everything.
3 years ago, at Date With Destiny Gold Coast with Tony Robbins, he led us to write a life Mission Statement.
After a long deliberation, internal struggle, writing, re-writing, and even more re-writing, the following words came through me:
My Mission in life is to enjoy life’s beautiful moments, and reclaim the unconditional love in myself and others.
You may be wondering, “What on earth does that mean???”
To be honest, I looked at it, and didn’t myself recognise what I wrote.
Does it mean I’m not enjoying moments in my life now?
Does it mean something in me is ‘missing’?
Does it mean I cannot feel true unconditional love or receive love now?
Does it mean I see the pain that others face that keep them from feeling true love for themselves and others?
It led down to a rabbit hole of more questions for me.
Why do I always feel to take 1 step forward, and 2 steps back?
Why does it feel like no matter how hard I work, or how much sales I close, or how I change my approach, or people, I seem to be treading water in the same place? Just barely?
Why can’t I seem to give myself credit, celebrate, even when I achieve things that for so many seem out of reach?
3 years ago was when we started our marketing agency with the goal of being a trusted partner for life-changing businesses. People with products and services which solve real problems, change lives, run by good people, and need more help to reach even more people.
If I were to rewind even further, when I stood in the middle of the night facing the jungle during my army days, asking myself, “WHY do I exist?” the answer kept going back to helping people and serving humanity to the highest level for the rest of my days.
After travelling around the world, learning from experts, gurus, coaches, mentors, picking up skills like public speaking, stage sales, direct sales, marketing, online funnels, organisational management, coaching, training and facilitation, I still seemed to not have found the answer for myself. Something seemed to be… ‘missing’.
No matter how many externalities I sought out, to ‘upskill’, ‘self-help’ and ‘develop personally’… I knew there was something inside. Like burning embers. Something that was clawing inside of me. That voice that said I wasn’t good enough. The triggered emotions that came whenever I felt I was going to get betrayed. The little boy that was afraid of rejection. The raging beast that came out whenever heavy topics of money, power and control came into the equation. The ‘lazy’ teen that was actually feeling helpless or despair, that couldn’t bring himself to wake up, or move, or even try.
When I look back at all the moments that have brought me here, it becomes obvious to me that so many moments of my life - big and small - were controlled by these emotions, triggers, sub-conscious controls. No matter how much I consciously controlled, or told myself to do it, or ‘thought positively’ or with affirmations… it was only the tip of the iceberg.
You see, you already know that we have conscious thoughts, feelings and decisions. Yet that forms less than 10% of our brain function. That means, your thoughts, feelings, decisions and behaviour are not conscious - it’s driven by something below the surface. More primal. Something that we’ve learnt and now auto-run, since a long long time ago.
Feeling these embers in my heart, they were manifesting all sorts of ways. Cash flow issues. Delayed projects. Mis-communication internally, with clients. And a constant discontent with myself, my life. Even as we were smashing out great work, as we were getting featured in various publications and events, even as I became the founding President of Singapore’s first Platinum launch BNI Chapter and thereafter a member of the board of a National Chamber, they continued.
2019, and probably before that, has been a time of perturbation, challenges, doubts, frustrations…
It was also the year that I finally found the answers to the questions above.
It wasn't in the smart goals, or checklists, or morning routines, or affirmations, or positive thinking... it was found in the truth of my unconscious, my past.
2020 is the year where I remember, fully embrace myself, love myself and embrace the love of others. The year where I allow myself to enjoy life’s beautiful moments, and to continue reclaiming the love inside me… and the beginning of a lifelong journey to help others reclaim the love in themselves.
No more externalities... it's time to go deep.
Join me? :)
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