[#12] My Head Hurts! - or - dealing with it.

I once spoke to a therapist about climate anxiety. He stared blankly, and like the joke goes, asked me to talk about my?mother.

In my early thirties, my parents had a weekend anniversary getaway. We’re a reading family, and back then I was studying philosophy so to pass the time I brought Heidegger’s philosophical tome Being and Time?—?an impenetrable discussion of our place as conscious entities in a cold, dark universe. My younger brother Gord commented, “Careful, people who read that book come out different!” He was half joking, but there are kinds of knowledge that change you?—?and not for the better. Nothing I discovered in philosophy, however?—?from Heidegger to the French existentialists?—?diminished my spirit. I wanted to discover the world as it is, not as we hope it might be.

But climate risk was different. Gord’s warning echoed years later as I absorbed the uncompromising math of greenhouse gases and atmospheric physics and how that growing energy imbalance would cascade through human systems. No-one who goes into the ‘carbon kitchen’ comes out the same. It did what Heidegger never could. I changed, and to this day struggle with a hard truth I sometimes wish I could unlearn. Ignorance can be bliss, and I’m not as tough as I once thought. Bad Warming is depressing, clinically so to some.

Google climate change and mental health. It’s a huge topic?—?thousands of sites, most from the past few years. Climate activists and scientists, who had long privately admitted depression and anxiety, now speak publicly about those struggles. Mental health professionals and advocates spin up novel language to cope: eco-rage, eco-burnout, eco-PTSD. The American Psychological Association recently defined eco-anxiety as “a chronic fear of environmental doom”. Yep, pretty easy to self-diagnose that one.

Bad Warming clearly affects mental health. The most obvious is the immediate trauma of a physical event. Each year millions of people face enormous stress as homes burn, fields turn to dust or entire towns wash away in floods. I can’t imagine the mental state of a Pakistani farmer who watched their livelihood drown with their farm in 2022, the Fort McMurray mom whose home burned in 2016 or the Libyan father whose kid washed away in the massive flash flood this year.

These acute traumas are debilitating, and more are coming. But they’re not mine. What I can speak to is the experience of a climate-savvy, relatively well-off, dad. To some extent, my mental health issues?—?a mix of eco-anxiety and rage?—?are a luxury compared to those more acute traumas. My anxiety is more anticipation of loss than loss itself. And I focus my rage to drive a career in climate-tech (a healthy response?) But intense negative psychological affects are real none-the-less. The more colleagues I speak to, the more widespread it seems.

Eco-anxiety is a varied beast. For some, it’s the feeling of a loss of nature. This can be local?—?perhaps a treasured forest burned or a favourite lake is under pressure. Or global?—?the Anthropocene shifts us from being embedded within nature to engineering it. As our place in the world changes, the ground shifts uncomfortably. As economic factures appear, we worry about our own future. We certainly worry for our kids’ economic and physical security as environmental, social and political uncertainties compound.

Add to the mix a sense of helplessness and feelings of guilt. We feel insignificant compared to the scale of the problem, yet we’re part of it. Every time we drive our car, or go on vacation, we’re complicit. It’s easy to blame an oil company, but we’re using what they’re selling. To be climate savvy is to be a hypocrite. So we stop driving our car, or skip a vacation. Maybe we vote for the green party. And what?… we save the planet? Meanwhile, the billionaire class rubs our noses in it with ostentatious consumption of private jets and mega-yachts. Our rage and eco-anxiety grow because it seems there’s no way out.

The young are most susceptible. It’s their world we’re talking about. And they know we’ll be long gone when the worst of Bad Warming hits. I can’t imagine being a young adult figuring out my place in this world. Teenagers have a tough enough time as it is: hormones, career paths, social pressures, whatever. Now add the deep foreboding fear and uncertainties of a planet out of whack?—?and it’s a deadly mix for mental health. They’re supposed to pick a university course and plan a long-term career while they watch Canadian forests burn and oil barons preside over COP28?

The rage of Greta Thunberg and her peers is expressed in the outpouring of civil disobedience by groups like Extinction Rebellion. Seen this way, the tut-tutting of the chattering classes at their behaviour seems out of touch. Were I young today, I’d do a lot more than throw soup on a painting! The rage and anxiety of the young is now so widespread the climate skeptic community complains all this talk of climate risk is?… bad for their mental health. We’re supposed to stay quiet on climate risk because those most affected by it react in the only way that makes sense to them.

Eco-anxiety is widespread. More than half[1] of Americans worry about climate’s effect on their mental health. A full quarter actively try not to think about it (an increasingly untenable strategy for self-preservation). Layers of climate risk build psychological tension across the population. That pressure needs acknowledgment and release.

I once spoke to a therapist about climate anxiety. He stared at me blankly, and like the joke goes, asked me to talk about my mother. I tried anti-depressants (SSRIs) for a few months. That put some space between my thoughts, but felt like a band-aid on a heart attack (with lousy side effects). The challenge for the therapeutic community is eco-anxiety is a reasonable reaction to a clear understanding of scientific facts. Why should a healthy reaction to a well-understood risk be pathologized? This is not a childhood trauma to overcome, or an over-reaction to manage, but a clear-eyed response to existential risk. It seems to me if a therapist doesn’t understand climate risk, they can’t see my position, never mind help.

The therapeutic community is trying[2]. Climate Psychology Alliance North America represents hundreds of ‘climate aware’ psychotherapists. The traditional separation between therapist and patient breaks down. A new starting point: it’s not you, it’s the climate. Therapy still centers on the individual, but eco-anxiety is seen as a species-wide problem and a cogent psychological representation of systems?—?natural, atmospheric, economic?—?much larger than us. The traditional approach links internal anxiety with an event?—?historical or current?—?and treats psychological problems as being out of proportion to that event. The resolution is to move away from what caused harm to a more healthy present. But there’s no resolution here, no after-the-event.

Eco-anxiety is not a pathology to cure. It’s a healthy reaction to an unhealthy situation. How would therapy normalize a person to Bad Warming? Are we supposed to be happy? Are we to medicate our way through this? A population of SSRI/SOMA-induced acceptance of the coming storm doesn’t sound right to me. Perhaps the best I can do is just learn to sit with the pain of Bad Warming awareness without reaching for a wine bottle.

All this is a fancy way to say my head hurts and I’m not sure what to do about it! But I have a few suggestions.

Building mental resilience is as much a part of our collective future as physical, social and economic resilience. We need psychological adaptation alongside physical adaptation. Akin to seawalls, we’ll learn new psychological narratives to protect our sense of self, make sense of what’s happening, and drive our reactions to it. The last thing we need as we face Bad Warming is to be muddle-headed, frantic, irrational, selfish. There are traditions of mindfulness that help. Meditation comes in many forms and techniques (my practice is Transcendental Meditation?—?TM).

Community and shared awareness is critical. When I started at MaRS in 2009, after a long stint as an independent entrepreneur, I felt more grounded. Just entering a work environment with colleagues that shared my concern helped. I felt less crazy. That sense of mutual awareness expanded with ArcTern and continues to this day. It’s impossible to do this work alone. Today, climate awareness is broad, you don’t need a niche job to find shared understanding. Just hang out with reasonable people, and talk. We climate-concerned people are dominant, despite online trolling and political gamesmanship.

Open engagement with eco-anxiety spurs us to action, to better prepare ourselves and our kids for what’s coming. That work helps our own mental health. It’s one thing to share concerns within a community, it’s another to work together; to mitigate climate risk, understand adaptation pathways and build local resilience. It’s sounds obvious, but work to make the world better. Be an agent of resilience. Don’t burrow down and hide from this thing. We are not helpless people tugged along on a nasty turn of history, but active agents in deciding how we confront that turn.

The need to look after our own mental health is an opportunity for empathy. If we, the relatively privileged and secure, need counselling and comfort?—?imagine the needs of those on the front lines. Don’t turn away, or off, when you see climate trauma on your screens. The people in those boats on a flooded street, the farmers whose crops failed, the family whose home burned, and the kids who cry out in anger at our inaction?—?this is us. All of us. Mental health and climate are already linked, and it will get much worse from here. Empathize, sympathize, use this time to reflect on how we can built a future in which we look after each other. Everywhere.

Last, be aware this is all transient anyway. It’s one more step on our species’ long journey. This is not just the end of something, but the beginning of something else. We humans are learning a lesson about who we are, and we’ll come out the other side, one way or another. Decide what we’ll be on the other side, and make that happen. Call this ‘Consolations of a Buddhist nature’. I’ll have more to say on Consolations in a future edition.

[Excerpt from upcoming book — It’s Getting Hot in Here: Reflections of a climate hawk grappling with the inevitable]

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[1] https://www.psychiatry.org/newsroom/news-releases/climate-poll-2020

[2] A seminal paper in 2011, Psychological Impacts of Climate Change, sees Bad Warming “as much a psychological and social phenomenon as a matter of biodiversity and geophysics.” The Yale Journal of Biology and Medicine linked eco-anxiety’s feelings of ‘systemic uncertainty’ with constant reminders of “ethical dilemmas and deep social criticism of modern society” which in turn drives questions about “the relationship of humans with nature and the meaning of being human in the Anthropocene.”