The Biggest Mistake of Your Life!!!

So, what really was the biggest leap of faith in your adult life?

Here’s mine…

I quit my full-time job at an established Legacy Corporate; as a salaried employee, with a decent-paying job to pursue my dream of becoming a full-time author!

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Take your time, let it sink in…

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“You have a poor sense of Decision-making!”

“It’s going to be the Biggest Mistake of your life…!”

“Do your parents know about this? Have they approved of it?!”

“My boss asked me if she has thought this decision through…!”

Obviously, I was called all these things.

Did I do it anyway? Hell Yeah, I did.

So, are you basically a Rebel?

Not a rebel by choice, but a rebel by design.

(Welcome to Delulu Interview with Devleena Naik. Manifesting and practicing answers, just in case, you know!)

Growing up in a typical Indian Household, all and everything I ever saw around me was a sea of comparison above me.

You are better than your friend. Your other friend is better than you. Sharma ji ki beta being better than the both of you. Your brother being better in this particular subject. Finally, some Mishra ji ki beti being the best!

Back in childhood, in our English Classes, we were being taught the different degrees of comparison; adjective, comparative and superlative.

For better understanding, it was always;

I am good, your friend is better and someone else is the best!

I felt like being viewed not as an individual! For that matter, no one was viewed as an individual, everyone was a person wearing a badge of honour; the class topper, the math topper, the best footballer, the best female athlete of her batch, the best dancer…

And who was I? I was an average student, a mediocre; non-problematic and forgettable.

It was once, one of my favourite school teachers said, “You remember the top students who excel in studies and the back-benchers because they are a real pain in the asses!”

I was good enough to not give anyone pain; but not good enough to really excel in studies.

Then who was I really?

Was I just the side character of an epic movie? Was I just the girl-best friend? For two good years, I tried my hardest to escape the fact, that I was just as good as the crowd!

Did I want to be a part of the crowd? Damn Never!!

Despite that, was I still a part? Hell Yeah!!

SideNotes: Growing up I realised, you are not your walking badges of honour! You are a consequence of your experiences; black, white, grey and all shades in between.

So, what did you do that set yourself apart?

Do something no one around me was doing, and there would be no relative metric! You needn’t be the best at everything, but surely happy and great, while doing it!

Taking charge of being the writer of my story…! They say you either rule the narrative, or it rules you… I am taking my precautions, and to know more about the updates of this silly stupid journey, sign up for my newsletter!

In the end, you are your biggest enemy and your only supporter.

So, you are basically a people-pleaser and desperately seek external validation to make yourself feel better!?

How exactly are you making money now?

Aren’t you looking for any other sources of income?

Haven’t you tried content writing? Isn’t it just the same, you gotta write in both of them!?

Is it even sustainable for a Novelist in India to make a living?

Now that’s a soul-searching question for the next episode of Delulu Interviews of the “Is She Really Serious?” An Existential Series by Devleena Naik.